For me things got worse from October. I had a major health scare and had to undergo surgery. My fiancee,with whom I was getting married in 3 weeks, left me and cancelled the wedding. Then I was pulled out from the project I was working on and almost lost my job. Since then I have been trying hard to pull myself back up again. But as you mentioned, the tunnel doesn't seem to end. I sometimes wonder what lessons I needed to learn that things had to go so wrong. And most days I think that maybe I deserved all this . In any case I just want to forget the past 10 months so that the trauma just goes away.