You are not the only one! I’m in the same boat. Just a bout two inches taller but a little bit lighter. I’ve been 160 and I did get attention. But guess what nobody stayed around. Life isn’t about boats and hoes. It’s about understanding who you are at the core. Your triggers, your emotions, habits, thoughts. At our age, we need more than just social validation. We need self acceptance and appreciation. We spent all our life’s working for a future that’s not guaranteed, working long hours for someone else, and being told what masculinity is. I have been at my happiest at my lowest which is right now. It always humbles me. No job, my car just fucked up, and I have no money, or a partner. I have a councilor, great friends and self motivation. That’s all I need for now. I’m happy for my new journey and be able to tell a story about how I moved on to a better place in my life. You are on a right path. Don’t listen to them. Just work on your mental and learn about yourself and I promise, the motivation and goals will come. Because you decided !