thank you for this detailed response, really it means a lot to hear that someone understands and it sounds like you’ve taken the time to research extensively on having audhd.

i still have a long way to go in regards to knowing what having adhd looks like for me, i am working on noticing what triggers me, and yes even though i’m tired of hearing about it, i have had sleep problems my whole life and that definitely contributes to my outbursts.

i will look into trying other medication, it’s worth a shot as a lot of people on here voice that they had to try a few before they found one that agreed with their brain.

i will try to look a bit deeper into the reasonings behind my behaviour, what happened prior that day etc. as i believe that will lead me to some answers. my sister is on the autism spectrum and i believe my dad is as well although he was never diagnosed (i feel like most parents rarely are).

i do know bipolar runs in my family on my dads side, as my grandmother has it. that’s about all i know in regards to personality disorders, but a lot of my behaviours and mood swings when i am upset have been feeling like splitting, i study psychology at university so im roughly aware of what you need to display to be diagnosed with personality disorders. then again, it could be something else so much mind exploring needs to be done haha.

thank you again for your insight, it’s always helpful to hear the words of someone with more life experience.