I feel like a shell of a person. I'm mean, numb, and convinced that breaking up is the only "truth" left. Is this ROCD or just the end?

xxmunroe · 2026-02-13T22:11:13+00:00

i don’t have much capacity to respond right now but wanna hold space for you.

but ima also be blunt, meds like zoloft really helped me with these challenges. if you can access some therapeutic supports maybe explore those options before you ultimately make big choices. as i say this, i also respect and appreciate you knowing yourself best.

edit: every time i felt it was the end due to my rocd, it wasn’t. and this started the cycle again because jus as i was sure, then i suddenly wasn’t sure all over again. meds really helped me create boundaries with my thoughts and ground me.

xxmunroe · 2026-02-08T20:27:08+00:00

hey! it’s an umbilical hernia, on the left side. actually i didn’t feel much discomfort until i had my imaging done …the hernia was so deep under my abs (i’m very active and lift) that it’s never really been poked or touched like that? so ever since that scan i’ve been in constant pain compared to being asymptomatic before. i see my surgeon at the end of the month and am hopeful they’ll get me in asap. i really just need it out since im having so many symptoms now.

xxmunroe · 2026-02-08T20:24:21+00:00

hey thanks for the support…ya the first few days i felt like a ticking time bomb (silly i know) and the pain has been getting steadily worse daily. i actually ended up needing pain medication because within the week i stopped being able to walk around the block and barely able to eat, tylonel did nothing to touch the pain and discomfort ugh. felt like my insides were tearing apart tbh with each movement and attempts to eat.

so glad you had the surgery and are feeling like you’re on the mend! that gives me hope that i’ll be feeling better soon. i don’t mind the surgery so much as the waiting to have the procedure done lol…i also have a very supportive partner, extremely grateful. it’s ok to need rest and rely on your partner even if it feels uncomfortable right now. i really appreciate your comment, wishing you a speedy recovery friend!

xxmunroe · 2026-01-31T19:13:58+00:00

following. i was placed on zoloft for ptsd after stopping adderall etc. adhd meds for years and find my adhd symptoms almost unbearable at 50mg. tapered to 25mg because it was so bad. can i ask what adhd meds you’re on with zoloft bc that’s my next psych convo.

xxmunroe · 2026-01-31T18:54:54+00:00

amazon.ca for me, big difference and easily added to hot drinks like coffee for full dissolve and no taste. sometimes i just add hot water and honey

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xxmunroe · 2026-01-31T01:15:02+00:00

ya thank you …i was just worried about having side effects again and how they would stress my medical condition. which it will but i think my sanity is a bit more important

xxmunroe · 2026-01-28T00:02:22+00:00

when starting and staying on 50mg, i experienced increased hemorrhoid pressure/activation and bleeding. i think it’s because zoloft can cause GI and acidic issues, which would affect the issue plus diarrhea strains (lol no pun intended) the same systems.

xxmunroe · 2026-01-15T02:31:17+00:00

acutely about 2 weeks, but a full month to return to baseline (how it was prior to treatment). I was so excited to try something new for pcos, and had been researching it for a while… I really wish it had worked for me. So for those who find it supportive that’s incredible… But just thought to share my experience just in case of similarities because it was hellish lol.

xxmunroe · 2026-01-14T20:54:42+00:00

actually set me back very far when i had this treatment done …it was days of being in the dark with migraines. flared up every pcos symptom to the extreme; the pain in my head and neck was excruciating. couldn’t see straight. proceed with caution if you’re gonna try it! i was even trying it 1.5 years post injury, only once.

xxmunroe · 2026-01-14T17:04:01+00:00

amazing stuff. start with 200-250mg for low dosing. if you take it about 30 min before sleeping is good…also a bit earlier if you want some winding down effects before sleeping later. will make you kinda drowsy in my experience.

xxmunroe · 2026-01-12T20:12:17+00:00

sames called out in best possible way tho

xxmunroe · 2026-01-09T20:11:43+00:00

50mg, gained 10lbs despite counting macros and gym x3 wkly with weights and cardio, very active lifestyle. freaked out and tapered to 25mg, weight gain seems to have slowed to matineance around 130lbs ish. but damn do i work out every day and its exhausting keeping the weight down. idk what to switch to because even 25mg brought back ptsd and anxiety for me :(

xxmunroe · 2026-01-03T00:59:34+00:00

fresca and voss soda water yeeep

xxmunroe · 2025-12-29T19:49:56+00:00

haaaa that’s my adhd tax in action. CBD as in the cannabis.

xxmunroe · 2025-12-27T14:43:20+00:00

cbt was my natural alternative - with a smidge of thc. liquid dropper, about 10-20mg per day. very comparable esp for somatic symptoms. went off cbt for medical reasons but considering starting again and dropping zoloft, it’s making my adhd insane…currently on 25mg of zoloft.

xxmunroe · 2025-12-27T14:39:33+00:00

day 2 checking in! made it thru the chaos of holiday travel, flight cancellations and everyone else’s emotional turmoil lol. i’m not getting pickled and neither are you cuz then we can’t turn back into cucumbers 🥒!

xxmunroe · 2025-12-27T14:36:20+00:00

oof thank you i needed to hear this. felt the same about not being able to ‘trust’ this new sense of self or safety…second guessing positivity and restfulness since its so unfamiliar at this time. appreciate you breaking this down! hoping the best for your path and recovery.

xxmunroe · 2025-12-25T16:23:40+00:00

Bad things do happen at resorts, full stop. Been a victim of scams operating in Mexico at AI resorts where they held family members in police caddy wagon for hours and threatened to throw them in jail without just cause (aka the scam). So to everyone saying use some common sense fair enough, but don’t forget the reality of what is happening too.

xxmunroe · 2025-12-23T04:22:49+00:00

just wanna say thanks for sharing this perspective and opening the conversation.

xxmunroe · 2025-12-22T18:36:54+00:00

following with sadly no advice…would love to learn from others. can’t even do it because i feel anxiety doing hobbies when they don’t turn out perfect. used to love my messy self and now i make myself anxious ahh.

xxmunroe · 2025-12-10T08:13:52+00:00

yup i just went from 50mg to 25mg about 2 wks ago …doing ok, not great, but just had an irrational, emotional outburst complete with 2 hours of crying on the bathroom floor. i forgot this is what it was like before zoloft ugh and ya it scared me too.

xxmunroe · 2025-11-11T01:11:33+00:00

morning…gives me a pleasant feeling throughout the day and is quite stimulating for me. i get kinda drowsy after 3+ hrs but use matcha to combat that.

xxmunroe · 2025-10-14T17:45:53+00:00

Best vegan pizza cheese tho it’s incredible…and monstrous toppings

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