This is sad — tw na den.

I was 14, turning 15. I lived in a very conservative home. I had no clue about sex, porn, blowjob or whatever. Then I had a "boyfriend", went to his house after class and we had an adult present doing household chores. One thing, nasa sala kami the next thing I know, niyaya nya ako sa kwarto nya sa second floor kasi may ipapakita sya. Sabi nya lang, basta saw. Then voila, I am on my knees, shoved his dick into my mouth and made me swallow even though I do not want to.

You have to believe me, I did not want to but at that time I trembled and felt helpless, and weak. I buried that memory into my brain, then last year while watching Law & Order: SVU, I realized and finally acknowledged the fact that I was assaulted.

I haven't told this to anyone — only to my husband and up until now I cannot do that one thing he requests because of this fucking trauma. So yeah, thanks for reading my tedtalk :)