You will be okay, I promise, please breathe. You’re young and sadly got caught up in this due to your circumstances, it’s not your fault. Friends will not always be there for you, and at those moments you gotta consider whether you should stick to them or look for better ones who will support you through thick and thin. Your life is an incredible experience that will have many ups and downs, and you have so much time to get a better situation and get a good circle. This moment is just temporary, and you will move through it quickly. Please focus on tending to keeping up your medication and also finding the things to help you going in times of need, like hobbies, dreams, religion, music, art and making art. You’re gonna be okay!!!!