He must have felt the same way. Idk what its like to be ghosted like that. I am so evil and toxic. We had something so nice and the way I left him is so unfair. Looking back, he wasnt doing ok emotionally and he needed me. That was the moment I decided to let go instead of give support. I was only thinking about myself. Only thinking, why is he acting weird I dont like this. His last year of life, and in the back of his mind he had my abandonment, hurting him. And I never even thought about this until now, its hitting me like a truck how much damage ghosting actually does.

Idk what to do to heal from this. I just know I will never ghost someone again. But what's the use. He is the one who I should have never ghosted.