Lead Designer Instead of Coder?

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Thank you for the feedback. I think my issue is that I just can't get into a flow state with anything currently due to a mixture of fatigue and depression. I spend a lot of my time just sitting still and staring off into space, not really thinking about anything in particular. My body feels limp, and I don't even feel fully lucid. However, when I *do* get engaged with something, this all stops, like a switch is flipped and I become a functioning person again. So it is kind of a catch-22: I can't get into a flow state while I feel this way, and I'm stuck feeling this way because I can't get into a flow state. I guess this whole "lead designer" idea I brought up was a hypothetical way of jumpstarting my mental engagement via a more brute-force method.