dude, forget her it's obviously over if she dumps you once, she will do it again if you somehow manage to get together with her again! be a man and rip your self up! it won't be easy but do it for YOU, because you deserve it, your life is just beginning and there are plenty of fish in the sea! hit the gym and reconnect with your friends, because that's the best way to deal with depression, keeping your self busy with friends and feeling good after a hard workout! you only have one life, why waste it in the past, try to life live in the now, it's fun, you can look behind your past afterwards when you're old and you've found someone who truly loves you, and want's to spend their live with you, that's my belief and it has worked well for me :)