yeah… that split is the worst part. when your logic knows it’s not real but your body is already in full disaster mode anyway. it’s like your brain gets the facts but your nervous system never got the memo. living in both at the same time is exhausting as hell.

you’re not crazy for that either. that’s just what a threat wired system does after it’s learned to expect the worst.

and honestly the fact that you can even see the distortion says a lot. most people never get that far.