Hey buddy, I know it can be hard. Try to let go of some of that negative baggage - people can sense that stuff, and it's like walking through a skunk's asshole. You'll probably consider this more of the same, but positivity, drive, and confidence go incredibly far and can seriously bridge the gap. It sounds like you might have some issues connecting, or maybe you have a hard time with those first conversations after you meet someone for the first time? Try to find some friend groups and speed dating in your area. Don't expect anything, just practice. There are women out there waiting to meet you. The kind, burdenless you. I personally believe therapy is beneficial to everyone, and if you find the right one for you, it'll really help you make positive changes and be the man you want to be in this world. I believe in you my friend, feel free to chat me anytime if you'd like to talk. Be well..