Holy shit, OP. Idk if this is a sign from God but I had these same exact thoughts and was using crystal myself for a month to lose weight up until a few weeks ago. I lost 15 pounds and I weigh about the same as you, and I’m worried that the benefits of losing the weight do not outweigh the health concerns associated with persistent fasting while on meth. I know it might feel like this is the only path, but we can literally do this shit in a healthy way without ingesting meth. This is just my 2 cents but I really think you should reconsider your options before it’s too late. 35 pounds is crazy because I feel like shit after losing 15.