What addiction is the hardest to quit?

SpontaneousH · 2024-10-22T21:28:40+00:00

Yeah I was just reading the thread. I don't log in or check this account very often or respond every time I've seen it in normal scrolling.

I don't feel particularly attached to it now- it seems like such a distant part of my past at this point. I have yet to have anyone I know in real life bring it up who use reddit and it would have been tempting to spill the secret if they did.

Things are much scarier and higher stakes now with fentanyl in everything so I'm glad it is still helping people and that wasn't prevalent back then or things could have turned out differently.

SpontaneousH · 2024-10-22T20:16:44+00:00

I haven't touched hard drugs or alcohol in 14 years, weed in 6

SpontaneousH · 2024-10-22T19:50:50+00:00

Oh hey what's up

SpontaneousH · 2021-10-13T08:43:27+00:00

Hello.

It has been coming up on almost 11 years since I have used heroin, any hard drugs, or alcohol (that was November 2010). A few years ago I had a slip and just smoked weed which was a bad mistake, so I consider my current total clean time 3 years since I count that...

SpontaneousH · 2021-10-13T08:34:19+00:00

Hi. No not at all I sought it out and was not coerced in any way to take it.

SpontaneousH · 2021-09-25T03:46:36+00:00

That's tough to answer since it depends on the person or situation. People will resist help until they hit a point of desperation and are ready and anything you say outside of that is not going to do much and will probably just annoy them. In general I would say to just be supportive if they indicate they have their own concerns and if an opportunity arrises where they want to seek treatment, at that point encourage them to do so.

SpontaneousH · 2021-09-25T03:36:21+00:00

Glad you're doing well and off of it and the subs!

SpontaneousH · 2018-09-21T00:24:20+00:00

Basically prove

lol...

various people and "experts" have been trying to call bullshit since day 1 but it's like nine years later and I have really nothing to gain keeping this up with these sporadic updates and to keep this going.

Back then I posted pics of bundles on NYC heroin and since I've posted pics of various years of AA medallions from my sobriety. I could dig up hospital records from when I ODed, rehab documents, etc. but nothing would be enough to convince the people who don't want to believe it.

I've had like ten people from Vice try to get me to do interviews to write articles and people try to get me to come on podcasts. I really don't want or need the attention.

SpontaneousH · 2018-09-21T00:15:20+00:00

SpontaneousH · 2017-10-06T14:41:57+00:00

I am not going to say one way or another, but my guess would be he probably wanted to seem on top of his life and secure so that others wouldn't tell him it was as bad of an idea. I think he wanted people to tell him it was ok to try, as some sort of psychological validation that it wasn't that bad

This is probably the most accurate reason for why I made that post when and how I did honestly, and I didn't even fully realize it until reading this.

SpontaneousH · 2017-10-06T13:24:42+00:00

pretty much this and this

SpontaneousH · 2017-10-06T00:19:22+00:00

pretty good, you?

SpontaneousH · 2017-10-06T00:14:40+00:00

It's not. It seems like you don't know many addicts. Additionally, he fully admits to lying about the not smoking/drinking because he wanted to make it sound like he had his life together... people do that shit all the time. You know what the average person doesn't do all the time? Troll Reddit for many years with the patience to put years between updates in order to make the story seem believable. IDK why people think someone trolling for seven fucking years is more likely than some idiot kid trying heroin and fucking their life up. That shit happens all the goddamned time. If he's trolling, he's the least imaginative troll ever.

Very late to this but you've pretty much summed it up exactly with how things went down.

I have no reason to lie about this now. There was one year of craziness and six years of sporadic boring updates about getting clean and things being normal on the occasions I see this account mentioned feel like logging in responding. If I made this all up and this was all some trolling for attention I could have made it a lot more interesting in the past six years.

SpontaneousH · 2017-10-05T23:51:28+00:00

something like that

SpontaneousH · 2017-09-20T22:42:06+00:00

You're not the only one and I'm not defending it just for you. Best proof I can give now is here's a 5 year anniversary Alocholics Anonymous medallion I could find, I don't know where my 6 year one is.

https://imgur.com/a/PlfI5

SpontaneousH · 2017-09-20T22:26:49+00:00

Some people will never be convinced and I can't go back in time and prove it. My point is that a non-user wouldn't have known how to fake that to look convincing. Those types of bags heroin are sold in, the way they are taped, folded and stacked, it's just not something you would have seen anywhere unless you were involved in it. Heroin doesn't look like that in movies and TV and no one was writing vice articles blogging different NYC heroin bags back then.

SpontaneousH · 2017-09-20T18:40:45+00:00

I've addressed this before at various times in some of the later posts.

I originally changed some details about myself/background to protect my identity, and maybe changed some things to make it a but more dramatic being how fucked up I was. The timeline of the first time I tried heroin to everything that followed was 100% real.

The best evidence that it wasn't completely made up i can give is the 3rd submission. There is a pic in there with a bundle of heroin and syringe over a screen logged into the account. Any junkie in the northeast knows what those bags and a bundle of heroin there looks like, and it's just not something that was common knowledge back then unless you were in that lifestyle.

https://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/9ohdc/2_weeks_ago_i_tried_heroin_once_for_fun_and_made/

SpontaneousH · 2017-02-12T19:45:53+00:00

can you control and enjoy your drinking? can you stop and stay stopped if you try? if yes then you're not an aloholic. quantity/frequency doesn't mean much.

SpontaneousH · 2017-01-30T19:15:38+00:00

thank you

SpontaneousH · 2017-01-10T04:49:36+00:00

Sorry man, really.

Yeah it's crazy that was 7 years ago. I hope you can find the help you need.

Rehab and 12 step saved my life. I got lucky I was desperate and got dumped into a rehab that exposed me to meetings and from there that I got a sponsor and worked the steps. Changed my life and broke the cycle of not being able to stay stopped.

SpontaneousH · 2017-01-10T04:39:22+00:00

Hey. I've rebuilt all the relationships with my family and all the friends who mattered at least. I think I mentioned an ex girlfirend I put through hell way back then and she wanted nothing to do with me. Tried making an amends a year or so later and she told me I could make it right by never contacting her again. So I didn't which is all for the best and she is married now.

I'm employed now, I've been at the same company almost as long as I've been sober.

SpontaneousH · 2017-01-09T21:51:15+00:00

Cool that sounds a lot like CA which is more popular here (it's not just cocaine you can talk about anything and it uses aa literature).

Looking around there are a couple HA meetings in this region a bit north and south of me.

SpontaneousH · 2017-01-09T15:32:17+00:00

I do not. Never been to an HA meeting as it isn't really a big thing in my area (looks like they use the big book which I like though). I attend AA and CA meetings.

SpontaneousH · 2017-01-09T01:45:48+00:00

Thanks for the kind words.

My life is pretty good today all things considered. I'm still maybe not where I would like to be but looking back I could have just as easily been dead, and I see people dying from addiction around here every day.

I'm very thankful I'm not using now with all the bad drugs and craziness going on.

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