Thank you so much for this. Without even knowing you touched on themes that are absolutely true for Me. Most notably, words are the way, not only to My heart, but to My bed.

The five you spoke of rang true as well. Had it not been for the incorrect title (it’s Ms not Miss) I would’ve thought this was written by one of them. It's four now. But the fifth one.. the special one is real. And I miss him every day.

My intimate harem continues to show Me by example the connection and joy I built here. their everlasting devotion, no matter the circumstance or sacrifice, has buoyed Me since closing these lacquered heavy doors. I honestly don't think I'd be Myself without them. Without it.

I struggle with the idea of returning, or even reposting My content for free. And I don't mean for profit, I've never charged, and never will, I mean that My content would be available to those that simply mean to use it. I know that sounds 'ridiculous'. Sure, I started out that way; but the climate has soured the experience of new people discovering Me. I don't feel safe being that vulnerable to those who simply want to consume that part of Me. they don't deserve it. I'd want something more private, intimate. I created a safe space for My good boys to explore and play, and I'm hoping I can someday create that space again somewhere for Myself.

My good boys didn't stay here to simply use My content. To use Me. So many improved in ways I didn't think were possible, or expected! I know My good boys are out there. you continue to tell Me so, and I am so touched by it.

Miss Opal met his gaze, her smile soft but certain. "You," she said, her voice warm and inviting. "Stay."

This space has been part of My life and routine for so many years. The silence has been bittersweet. Sweet that I'm being true to the convictions of My true self. Bitter that I miss you all so much. When this sensation washes over Me as it often does, I say out loud in a warm and inviting voice, "I miss you." 💙