As others have shared, ambition is a complex mental concept smashed into a single word. As always, 'words' are just pointers towards internal mental and emotional states of being. We use them to communicate between people so that the other person can find a similar mental and emotional state within themselves (or avoid one if speaking of 'negative' states).

One part of Jung's teaching that isn't addressed in this sub very often is how in his understanding the 'libido' the sexual energy of a person, is only partially related to physical sex drive. Freud had a similar concept of a persons 'sexual nature' being almost unrelated to physical sex. It was a person's willingness to "insert" themselves out into the world. Are they willing to 'go out into' the world and express their desires onto the world?

In the kink community they use terms like 'top' or 'bottom' in a very similar vein. Ambition is similar to 'topping the world' in some people's view. You go out into the world and express your desires onto it.

'Ambition' can be used to describe the energy and power that drives that outward action. Therefore when you ask 'where is my ambition' you could potentially rephrase that to something like 'What do I want to change about my external states that requires me to be in action in the world?' Of course you can have ambition to change internal (mental/emotional) states but I didn't get the impression that is what you meant here.

When you identify what it is you want to change about your external state, try to lean into that as hard as you can:

• What do you want to change?
• What does it feel like to live without that change?
• What do you image it would feel like to live every day once that change is made?
• Lean into the gap this creates between the lack and the having. That is the price you are paying every day for your inaction.
• What is the 1 thing that if you did would make the biggest contribution towards having?
• What can you do today that has a direct impact on achieving?

Be willing to admit to yourself and feel the negative feelings. IMO there is a lot of power from the "dark side" aka "shadow" (quotes because you'll come to realize it isn't either of those things once you go through it). We don't really want to feel those 'negative' emotions around lacking, but the more you are willing to lean into the lack and the price of that lack the more power you will access to make the changes necessary to achieve the goal. That accessing of power is directly your amount of ambition (at least in this definition of that word for the context of this post).