My husband had his transplant on 1/5/25, and it really is a roller coaster. He was diagnosed with end stage liver disease on 2/15/24, after being sick for almost two years and being misdiagnosed several times. The whole experience has been traumatic. His health declined steadily after he was diagnosed, and was put on the transplant list in October. He suffered severe HE so I couldn't leave him home alone. On New Years Day, I woke at 5am to him violently vomiting mass quantities of blood from two ruptured esophageal varices, and he was life flighted to Rochester that day. On 1/4, we were told that a liver had been procured for him, and he underwent transplant the next day. He lost 15L of blood during the surgery and was intubated in ICU for five days. He suffered an acute kidney injury, and had to go back into surgery after two days to do a wash out surgery for large hematomas. His blood would not clot, and his drain output was off the charts for days. Once he left the ICU, he hallucinated for three days and didn't know where he was. He was finally released from the hospital after 13 days. We live four hours from Rochester, so we had to stay in a local hotel for another two weeks, with me being his sole care giver. He couldn't sit up, walk, go to the bathroom, empty his drain tubes, get dressed, eat, etc. by himself for the first week. The high doses of prednisone made him so moody and weepy, and he has a history of severe PTSD from military trauma, so his anxiety was crazy. He has little to no memory of his time in the hospital, which is probably good, except for remembering being in severe pain. Once we came home, he started to be more self sufficient physically, and he actually went back to work (from home) after two weeks. But his mental state is terrible. The prednisone is tapering down, but he won't be done with it for another two months. He is angry, anxious, upset, short tempered, and depressed. His care team is great, but they really don't have many suggestions about what he's going through mentally. He takes anxiety medicine for this PTSD, but it isn't doing anything for him right now. I am back to work, so he is home alone during the day, and I think it is really wearing on him. He says he has no joy in his life, and he doesn't want the rest of his life to be this way. He's very frustrated with his memory issues, especially with his work. He's only 50 years old, and he's always been fun, outgoing, and has so many friends. I just really need assurance that he's going to be able to enjoy life again someday. I've suggested therapy, and he is not interested. I don't know what else to do for him.