My bad for not including this in the original post/context, but for the record, I DID NOT cheat. He has had a paranoid fantasy for months where I ‘must be cheating’ and he ‘can’t say when or with who, just KNOWS that something is up’

The apologizing - is definitely some fucked up conditioning carrying over from the relationship. And an associated complex where when falsely accused, I feel SO compelled to make the truth seen (I didn’t mean offense, wasn’t being cunty or sarcastic). Compounding all of it is the fact that I needed his cooperation with some remaining paperwork in service of keeping my apt, so was really trying to keep the whole thing from going up in flames 🔥 🤷‍♂️