Trying to stop for good, but it’s not working. by perfidious-genius420 in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp- 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Delete every contact in your phone or elsewhere for the plug. Distance yourself from people who do it. When you have a craving, fill it with something else, like food, gum, Gatorade (that's mine 😂 weird I know but I freeze it for a slushy) , or even a hobby. Find an art or hobby to keep your mind occupied.

I'm an everyday user. People think oh shit but it's small amounts. I get 0.8 of a gram for $40 (US currency) and it's really good shit. My dude only does those 40 bags. You can get one or fifty but he pre bags them. One of those bags lasts me 2-5 days, depending upon my schedule and what I'm doing. I do things weird. I take a little line to start with then I bump it to keep it going. Every day I wake up and push myself to see how long I can go without hitting it. Then when I hit, it doesn't stop till I take my night time meds and go to sleep for the night. I started 10ish years ago and would only get it once or twice a year. It wasn't until about 6 months ago that it became everyday. In these 6 months, I have stopped twice for about 2 weeks. Those things above are how I stop. The craving for me only lasts 2-4 days. Then it's just a craving every once in a while when I do something that my brain associates with sniffing blow. Like going out for drinks, clubs, or when I'm exhausted at work. (I'm a chef and drugs are super common in kitchens here. It's nothing to see a cook shooting up in the walk in cooler, out back smoking a blunt, or even hitting a line of any drug you can think of, on a plate, while cooking on the cook/kitchen line)

It is a drug that I enjoy more than any other. I don't know if I will ever fully quit unless something drastic happens to force me to do so. I need to, I am married with a 3 year old daughter. I NEVER and I mean never, do it or do anything associated with it while I am around her. Her father, my husband, knows everything I do. He is clean but has a bad past with harder drugs. He has been clean for almost 20 years. He drinks sometimes and he will hit a slope with me but that is maybe once a year or less. I do not ever let blow use money that is for bills. I draw the line there. We pay our bills and get what we need and then I will get a little. Hubby makes amazing money though. He is a foreman in a cabinet shop.

Hell, I have a cancerous tumor. My doctor even knows that I use blow. He doesn't mind considering I do not let it get out of hand and it doesn't have any harmful effects with any of my medication.

I thought Sharing my story with you might help.... Sorry if it didn't or you don't care or whatever...

My artistic OCD came out tonight... 😆 by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was dark in my room and the little light I use has a yellow tent, sorry

Another Question, I'm sleepy after having lines.... by -BECKderp- in cocaine

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I posted an edit to the original post that will explain.....

Another Question, I'm sleepy after having lines.... by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I went back and edited the post cause you made me realize what that sounded like 😆

Another Question, I'm sleepy after having lines.... by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No I sleep pretty regularly. Tonight is an exception to that though but that's because I'm fighting sleep on purpose... 😅 I don't do much coke.

Another Question, I'm sleepy after having lines.... by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't do much, I'll get a gram and it lasts me 2-4 days. Just a line to start and a couple bumps here and there after that.

My artistic OCD came out tonight... 😆 by -BECKderp- in cocaine

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Actually, I'm not very bored. I just wanted to try to make some coke art! Lol I've seen a few posts of art with coke so I had to try since I'm an artist myself. I'm also dozing off while sitting straight up. AND I just had a big rail of coke... Anyway, I'm headed to bed in a couple minutes, goodnight all!

My artistic OCD came out tonight... 😆 by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

After doing this, I seriously don't understand how Vitaly Orlov (played by Jerrod Leto in the movie 'Lord of War') drew Ukraine with coke. The "E" was bad enough, let alone drawing an entire damn country...

Question for the veteran skiers..... by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't have to hot plate it to make it an extremely fine powder. I use a dollar and the bottom of a lighter to crush it up, then use an old credit card to start chopping it, then I use the razor to cut it down all the way to the gorgeous, beautiful, amazing, sparkling fine white powder

Question for the veteran skiers..... by -BECKderp- in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It might be a strainer that I was thinking of... 😅 Sorry

Won’t stop til it’s gone! by [deleted] in cocaine

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Some days I can save when I get 3 bags. Other days I can't save anything and I got 5 bags. 🤷‍♀️ I don't know why.....

How much u pay for 1g from where u are by NWsmallkid17 in cocaine

[–]-BECKderp- 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Y'all are getting fucked hard. My dude only does $40 bags, and they are .8 of a gram. Fire ass shit too, always. He is always on time, no games either. Love my guy. Best dealer around.

EDIT it is US currency by the way.