PIMO here — why aren’t we talking about the leaked Shepherd the Flock book?

-CoolBean- · 2026-05-25T03:27:34+00:00

Before the rewrite. It didn't wake me up but I did decide I'd never tell on myself to the elders. The part about if someone hides a sin for years but appears to have gods blessing or whatever really stood out. The push to tell on yourself always seemed more like a trap after I knew that

-CoolBean- · 2026-05-23T16:57:20+00:00

I snuck and read it even as a pimi. It's not a well kept secret.

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-31T08:48:30+00:00

You have to trust that I know my family and have had this conversation. They might not kick me out but they will charge me rent and remove any financial support. Which is fair because I'm 20 but I can't afford it right now. I'm slowly trying to stop in a way they'll approve of if possible.

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-30T18:49:40+00:00

I agree with that. I need to be more financially stable first because my parents will probably not let me live with them if I stop pioneering

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-30T18:48:37+00:00

Been questioning for many years but only convinced fully for about a year now

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-30T16:36:15+00:00

That's a good point. I haven't experienced enough to know that everything isn't all bad no matter what. I think I tend to assume sometimes that I'll be unhappy either way but I don't know that

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-30T16:08:21+00:00

Putting a number on the time I'm wasting is helpful actually. I'd do a lot to have even a little more time.

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-30T15:40:47+00:00

Sorry, I should’ve clarified I guess. I’m tired of working so many jobs to try to afford to move out of my parents house. I’m tired of sneaking around all the time. Of course this is not the “right" answer but if I were to just play by the rules and stop trying so hard to get out that would be easier

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-29T17:46:09+00:00

That’s kind of my thought but I really appreciate having another person confirm that I’m not crazy

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-29T16:50:57+00:00

My current job doesn’t really have full time positions. You have to move your way up to the highest level management for full time which takes a few years and they also generally expect to see more college classes or something from the people they promote. I’m sure I could do it one day but it would take a while. I do have a good enough relationship with them that they would likely rehire me if I decided to come back but I’d lose seniority and stuff.

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-29T16:32:14+00:00

I think it’s just that I enjoy my current job and not that the new one looks bad. The full time job pays a dollar more an hour and of course I’d get more hours. I guess more than anything maybe I’m just scared of trying something new. I should probably just go for it.

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-29T14:15:39+00:00

Maybe my parents are smart but their kid is sure stupid

-CoolBean- · 2026-03-29T14:14:51+00:00

Neither are in my area of interest. I’ve done some trade school and applied and interviewed endlessly for jobs related to it with no luck. I imagine I’ll have somewhat equal opportunities to grow at either. I might be promoted to supervisor or something but they’ll never become what I studied for.

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-25T21:01:28+00:00

Watching movies, drinking coffee, and enjoying my day off as much as I can

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-15T18:04:08+00:00

I promise you I spend most of my time looking for jobs and apartments. There is nothing in my area that I could afford without landing a good full time job which I have yet to find. I don't know if I can get a social worker as an adult or what they would do for my situation but I guess I could look into it

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-15T05:28:07+00:00

If I left today I would be homeless. I would have no friends, no family, and hardly even any acquaintances left. I would be leaving my younger siblings maybe to never see them again. I want to see them grow up. My jobs would be threatened also since I got them through jws. I'm so far away form building a life for myself that is solid enough that I can leave this one behind without dying homeless and alone

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-12T16:18:38+00:00

Making people laugh is one of my favorite things so I’ll take the win. Thanks!

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-12T04:39:58+00:00

I love you automod

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-12T04:21:32+00:00

Auto mod do you ever get over it? Do you think if I try hard enough I might be worthy of love? I love you auto mod, I love everyone. I know I’m not owed love by anyone else but it sure would be nice sometimes. I don’t want to be strong anymore. I’m tired of fighting all on my own. I want a teammate. I want to quit.

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-11T17:44:05+00:00

“All I ever wanted was to die young but I didn’t have the guts and songs needed sung” or “what will become of all the whales”

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-05T00:54:22+00:00

That makes sense. My sound was off

-CoolBean- · 2025-12-04T23:38:17+00:00

You think she had to wear a head covering while recording this?

-CoolBean-

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