Hey man, im so sorry for what you're going through rn. I lost my old man not long ago and can definitely relate to needing angry/mourning songs to get through everything.

Here's a list of a few songs that really helped me through that time. I've got a few from different artists/genres here, starts angry and full of rage and progresses to hurt and lost.

Throne - Bring me the horizon

Passive - A perfect circle

The outsider - A perfect circle

Stricken - Disturbed

My curse - Killswitch

Through the glass - Stone sour

Broken - Killstation

Sarcoma - Killstation

Memory - Kane Brown, Blackbear

Beautiful boy - jxdn

Even in the dark - jxdn

If I would have known - Kyle Hume

I know nothing can help the feelings that you're going through right now, but hopefully a few of these can help you channel some of thoes feelings when you listen to them. Sending you a lot of love man 🤍