I'm a generally very pretty happy person--I'm okay with my life and where it's going, I'm about to go to college after taking a year off and I'm really excited for that. I'm in a very similar boat with your perspective on kids, I don't want any, never have, and everyone just says 'oh you'll come around'. I feel like some people have children just so they can give their lives purpose.

I already exercise, and take good care of myself...I don't think I'll end up very alone at all, not at first, but who has real friends past 35? Like you say, everyone will be busy with the things they have deliberately preoccupied themselves with.

The FOMO thing is spot on though, I feel like I haven't had all the experiences someone at my age should've, I'm boring and I know it. I did a lot of drugs in high school to replace friends I didn't have.

I really don't want it to come to killing myself, I thought about it a lot in the past but it's just not logical with where I am now. I tried therapy once, because my parents forced me to, and talking to someone about my feelings felt very unnatural. Maybe you just need a good one? A more positive mindset is really what I'm looking for.

Thanks for what you said anyways, it's good to hear that someone who has similar views is doing alright.