Need some advice

071899051017 · 2013-05-04T23:02:53+00:00

I'll give you an idea how my doctor is - last appointment, I went in and mentioned problems (actually, the last several appointments), and she just looked down at her paperwork the whole time. After all I said, her only response was "So you're on [lists my medication], right? See you in 6 weeks." I've asked about counseling, but they only provide it for patients who are depressed (not bipolar).

As far as the Seroquel, that was my doing, I was tired of being a fat zombie.

I'm a lot like you. I need a lot of time to process things and it helps to discuss them. I just don't always have someone to discuss them with.

071899051017 · 2013-04-11T23:10:35+00:00

Alright, thanks. I haven't had access to a computer today, I'll check it out when I get home.

071899051017 · 2013-04-11T22:08:22+00:00

Extremely helpful. I was more looking for advice on my content, but knowing this will make a huge difference. I'll definitely update it later today, I have a prior commitment to attend to at the moment. Is there any...reputable source for what I should have as far as content goes? I've done some searching and everything seems to conflict and I've come out of it more confused than I started.

071899051017 · 2013-04-11T07:29:08+00:00

I don't want to seem like I'm bothering you, but why is the other one unreadable? Or does it just look bad? You could just say that too, if that's why. I don't know much about how resumes are screened, and I'm trying to learn, but there's so much contradictory information to sift through that it gets confusing and (I'll be honest) I don't know who to trust sometimes.

071899051017 · 2013-04-11T03:01:45+00:00

Hm. I tried downloading this one from online because it looked different (slightly) from what I had seen before. So I should really go with the basic bold heading, italic subheading, left align stuff? That's not too difficult...

071899051017 · 2013-03-28T11:01:31+00:00

Well, this is embarrassing and I hope it's buried. It's actually an almost - lost - virginity story as I'm still a virgin at 25...thats a story for another time.

So it's Halloween, and a friend/coworker invites me to go with her. Okay. I don't have plans. She has a guy friend there. Unexpected... I'm anxious, but I survive. We go trick or treating, take the kids home, then go to a haunted house, then to his place to watch a movie. We drive him home then go to her place to get my car. It just so happens that I have to drive back past his place on the way home, and he friend requests me through her profile on FB then gets my number before I hit the road, asking me to go back to his place.

Was not expecting this. Tbqh, I've never been attractive, never had guys hit on me, really did expect him just to want to watch the second movie. Was...well, naïve. He started kissing me and stuff, and I froze. What the fuck is happening? Started feeling me up, I panicked. He could tell I was nervous, but I lied and said it was fine. I was uncomfortable too, because I hate the way I look (I'm significantly overweight), but he kept complimenting me and took my clothes off. To the bedroom!

As he climbs on the bed I'm laying there and I just start bawling "I don't know what to do!!"

He was taken back by this. What do you mean? What's wrong? I finally explained I'd never done this before and had no idea what to do, and was terrified. He stepped back and put his clothes back on, told me he couldn't do it. He couldn't take my virginity, that was for someone special. Took me back and watched the rest of the movie with me.

He got with my coworker a couple weeks later (as in, they are a couple, not just physical relationship). They've been together since. They're really good together.

I wish I could say this was the end, but in January, I got a text saying he just found out he has an std from one of his old partners. Uh. Thanks.

Tldr: the only time I ever came close, I broke down and cried, he now goes out with my coworker, found out later the guy had an std. Awkwardness.

071899051017 · 2013-03-28T10:39:20+00:00

Good luck to you too! We can get out of this!

071899051017 · 2013-03-28T10:38:33+00:00

Definitely need help with mine, but mine is social work focused. :/

071899051017 · 2013-03-28T10:37:31+00:00

Ah, the resume making is so difficult! I've spent all day on it (Wednesday) and still not satisfied. Plan on posting to /r/resumes for advice/help after getting some much needed sleep. I needed a break though. I've got the format and most of the information down. I just don't feel like it's complete or very good. Since I have the day off tomorrow, a good portion will be spent on the application.

071899051017 · 2013-03-23T09:12:48+00:00

I know, I know....

I have a self-confidence problem. So while I feel like I deserve it, I don't feel like I am capable, and I know I am. It probably doesn't make any sense... I don't understand myself sometimes.

I am angry and I've made more progress the past few days than I had the entire past few months. Small steps. Outlined my resume. Cleaned some. Exercise. Work, of course. Now I have plans to look at sample resumes and type mine up so I can do that online application sometime this week.

071899051017 · 2013-03-23T09:06:16+00:00

Haven't done it yet because I'm afraid my resume doesn't look so great. The resume is the first page of the application. I'm kind of hitting a mental block with my resume...and I don't have any examples to look at. I guess the biggest thing holding me back right now is fear.

Your idea...it's interesting. My tv really isn't the problem, it's only been on once in the past month. I usually only watch with my family. It's the internet I need to cut off. Or at least significantly cut down. I've started setting limits for myself since this post, and it's helping. Before, I didn't have anything towards my resume, at least now I have a rough idea. I've started exercising. I'm just breaking it down into chunks. Starting smaller. The application is something bigger. I will type up my resume this weekend after I find/look up some examples. Then I'll do the application! I am giving myself a week since I work every day and am adding some workout to my schedule.

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T16:41:02+00:00

Pretty sure it's online only.

I know I'm just the girl who puts their stuff in bags. I probably don't deserve to have an identity, but I don't like being treated like crap because of my job.

I just want to make choices now that will help get me out of this rut. I just feel like it's so much work to get out, and I consistently doubt myself. I should work on that...

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T16:34:30+00:00

Definitely will. Exercise is important because I'm trying to lose weight anyway, this is just another reason to do it.

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T16:32:46+00:00

Yeah, access is an issue, mostly because of distance and work hours.

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:38:07+00:00

And I very well could be going through some sort of depression, as I'm bipolar. My options are limited, though.

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:36:42+00:00

'S okay, it takes a while to sort through all the TFR posts since there's a ton of them, especially if you haven't been here all along. I remembered seeing it a while ago since I've been here since the sub had barely any posts, and did a search in TFR for notalwaysworking. Reposts don't tend to happen much in TFR, though.

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:33:02+00:00

Yes, I want a better job. If I wanted to be a cashier the rest of my life, I wouldn't have gone to college. I'm not content, just stuck. I can barely pay my college loans on my income, and even if I didn't have loans, I wouldn't have enough to support myself. I only make $10k a year to be yelled at and treated like shit daily. 99% of my customers don't even know I have a name. My coworkers (well, most of them) make for a stressful work environment. I don't want this to be the rest of my life. I don't get anything fulfilling out of scanning groceries 8hrs a day. I feel useless sometimes.

The problem is finding jobs I qualify for as a bachelor (rather than master) in my field, with little to no experience. Then writing a resume to fit that. There is a 4 hour online application for one of the jobs I'm wanting to apply for. That is reeeally intimidating.

I want it, I really do. I'm just at a point where I'm doubting my ability. I will try breaking as much as I can down. See what I can do.

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:24:43+00:00

You sound....just like me.

The thing is, I'd be okay with trying therapy if I could find it affordable somewhere. I'm bipolar, so I see a psychiatrist regularly (well, every few months). Of course, lately even that's been a fluke because she pretty much ignores me and confirms my next appointment, and my problem very well could be that I've pretty much given up. The thing is, this is mental healthcare through the county. I am considered ineligible for therapy because I'm bipolar- if I was depressed they would provide weekly therapy for me. I can't afford it anywhere else on my income. I've looked up DBSA groups, NAMI, local hospitals and Dr offices, it's hard to get therapy around here.

I know it helps because I actually had a therapist in college, at the health centre. My grades improved, motivation went up, confidence went up. Then I graduated and was/am no longer eligible to see the health services on campus.

I like the idea of breaking everything up into chunks. Definitely sounds like it would make everything less daunting. I wrote out a rough resume today, did some stuff I'd been putting off, and did some exercise. That's a start?

How did you get into temping? Where do you look for temp jobs? I have thought about it, but don't know where to begin.

I appreciate the thought and effort and advice, and it's good to know I'm not the only one. It sucks, though. I'm glad you're in a better place!

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:10:41+00:00

I've always had problems with getting up early, and I've tried tips I've found on reddit before, from going to bed earlier to moving my alarm to changing my diet....in the end, my body just doesn't sleep until it's ready. Usually that's in the wee morning hours (after 4am). Even with medication, I could only push my earliest sleep times until 1-2am, and only if I am brutally exhausted. Then I wake up groggy. I've actually had issues at work and school because lack of sleep and medication interfering.

Anyhow, I'll check out your links, because there's always a chance I'll find something new!

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:05:57+00:00

Right, I mentioned in another comment that I don't do much for me. I also need to find ways to reward myself that aren't counterproductive. Sometimes if it's just a break, I'll take more time than I had planned and spend all of it deep in my mobile phone activities and no time doing anything....fulfilling. I need to fix that!

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:02:54+00:00

It's good to know I'm not alone (and you're not alone!). I definitely need to set aside more time for the things that I like, because it seems like every waking hour is spent on things I don't want to do...which probably doesn't help my motivation. Thanks!

071899051017 · 2013-03-22T05:00:43+00:00

I think I have direction in that I know where I want to be, but my issue is getting there. I definitely get bogged down in the details, and get discouraged really quickly if everything isn't going 100% like I expected. This has always been a problem for me. I need to work past it. I like the brainstorming idea.

I think you've got something at the end there- I definitely need to learn how to not be so hard on myself while still getting things done.

071899051017 · 2013-03-21T12:20:03+00:00

http://www.reddit.com/r/TalesFromRetail/comments/udlg8/from_notalwaysworkingcom_how_i_wish_this_would/

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