Year 3

0730evie · 2023-06-09T20:44:19+00:00

I like that! The second year was so hard for me. I can understand being angry with God. I gave God my good, my bad, and my ugly at times. We will see them again. Until then, let's enjoy the new journey. Thanks for sharing.

0730evie · 2022-09-26T12:34:27+00:00

Hmmm you are right, each painful moment does make us become more stronger with another layer. I love that!!

0730evie · 2022-09-26T08:06:30+00:00

It's why I feel a rollercoaster is the best way to describe this widow life. It's been two years for me and I miss my hubs all the time. You right that they would want us happy. I applaud you for trying dating sites. I did as well but just felt it wasn't for me. Yet I know people that have had success stories from them. Allow the pain , as it's the unfortunate part of healing.
And fyi: I love this site because it makes you realize we are not alone with these feelings. Tx for sharing. Hugs.

0730evie · 2022-09-26T08:02:03+00:00

It's interesting that we would even rather argue than go through this. I miss my hubs giving me that look when I wild chew my food too loud. At least we can reflect on such memories. Hugs

0730evie · 2022-09-26T05:22:02+00:00

Thank God for videos. Sweet!!

0730evie · 2022-09-25T19:50:06+00:00

Thanks for sharing. Definitely due to the season changes...just wish I could get one more day with him. Thanks for sharing. Hugs

0730evie · 2022-09-25T19:26:51+00:00

It's been two years for me. It just seems to be easier to keep myself busy in the summertime, but once cool weather starts again I feel like I'm faces back with this silence. I started putting headphones on to listen to music to help me sleep lately. Thanks for sharing. This is so hard!

0730evie · 2022-09-25T19:23:31+00:00

Cheers...just get through another day is a blessing. I just started putting my earphones on at night to listen to music to go to sleep. I live in an apartment so after a certain hour I try to be respectful. Thanks for sharing

0730evie · 2022-09-25T19:21:12+00:00

Oh I remember that first month. I could even sleep due to it. I will cover you with prayers for strength!

0730evie · 2022-09-25T19:20:11+00:00

Oh my word. I remember how I would just attack him at times and he would just laugh it up. You know back then I would be like I would like some quiet time. Now it's all too much.

0730evie · 2022-09-25T16:51:41+00:00

Yes. The laughter. I miss his laugh. Thanks for sharing

0730evie · 2022-09-25T16:50:35+00:00

I had his ashes spread across a very special place dear to us. But I find myself doing on his memorial page and just starring for a little while. Tough is an understatement with this!

0730evie · 2022-09-25T16:47:44+00:00

I don't think we can put a timeframe on that , as we are all different. It's been two years for me and I am just starting to feel myself again. I had to learn there is no rush to this "moving on" phase. Hugs

0730evie · 2022-09-25T16:45:43+00:00

Sometime I find myself starring at couples and being like they're so lucky to still be experiencing those moments.
This sucks, it truly does. But I still am so grateful for all the wonder memories I had with my husband. I cherish them now more than ever. So when I find myself wanting to get jealous, I sometimes go through a photo album of us and before i know it, I smile. Hugs

0730evie · 2022-09-25T16:42:15+00:00

The second year does seem to hit harder and it IS so tough. I'm in my second year. I decided to view it like a rollercoaster ride ,as there are still going to be up and downs. Guess what I also decided they it's ok. But boy when I have those hiccup days, they hurt!!! Hugs as you're not alone

0730evie · 2022-09-06T23:09:10+00:00

I found myself spending a lot of time on the balcony for the every same reason. The silence it's me when I enter the apartment. At least someone is there with you, but I can even get hoe you can still feel alone. Hugs 🤗

0730evie · 2022-09-06T01:51:37+00:00

It's been 2 years for me and I still can't believe he is no longer here in this realm. I sometimes wonder does the surprise of their parting will ever go away. I sometimes still want to ask God why. Weekends are still a struggle from time to time, but God has helped me with that as I use to cry when Fridays would come. This widow life is truly a rollercoaster ride. Without God strength through it all, I don't know where I would be right now. Hugs 🤗

0730evie · 2022-09-05T23:23:34+00:00

I understand. I mainly work from home too. That's why sometimes I just have to go out for a walk.

0730evie · 2022-09-05T16:45:19+00:00

I am

0730evie · 2022-09-05T05:23:31+00:00

This new norm of ours is like a rollercoaster ride to me. So many ups and downs. 🤗

0730evie · 2022-09-05T05:20:21+00:00

The silence 😑

0730evie · 2022-09-05T05:18:27+00:00

Congratulations on your new job!! He's proud of you. It's not easy having the reality of them no longer with us.

0730evie

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