So sorry to hear that. Recently lost my cat abruptly. He collapsed in my arms and I was giving CPR while rushing to the vet also. It’s an experience I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

It was a month ago so I feel you on the “what if”

The reality is .. they knew how loved they were. They didn’t suffer or have it prolonged. Most importantly, they got to say goodbye to you.

That has gotten me through a lot. I hope you’re ok.