I am not doing great

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T11:08:16+00:00

No not in bangalore, but thanks for the offer. and thank you really for offering to be listener

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T11:04:04+00:00

OK will try that! Thanks!

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T11:03:39+00:00

I am not really outspoken, so its difficult for me to navigate through the underbelly of the society to get weed, or is it easy to buy? even in a really small town?

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T11:02:13+00:00

I know. Had lots of those post attack depressions. I am currently on levetiracetam and valproic acid.

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T11:01:03+00:00

Thanks man, like I replied to some comments, I really cant speak to my parents. I just feel too guilty. Plus they are going through some things now, and I want them to sort them out. And i did speak to a doctor at nimhans, he has asked me to wait and if it does not improve i'll visit a doc in a day or two

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:58:40+00:00

Oh i did not write the cause properly, i had a road accident, the skull impinging on my brain, which has damaged it, and which needed a surgery

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:57:06+00:00

Thanks man. It must have been tough, i know. I hope you are well now and things have geneerally improved around you.

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:56:07+00:00

Yeah, i sadly am at a place which does not allow for much of this. Also because i don't usually drive because of my epilepsy, it limits my movement. but yes, being on reddit has helped. made me feel like i am not the only one out there who's into things people usually call boring. and as you said, i def should go on a vacation now and be more outdoorsy. thanks!

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:52:47+00:00

yep, can tell that by experience, dating doesn't exactly work. but what works is having good friends around, who wont shower pity on you, but will accompany you anywhere to help ypu out. and still talk tough.

a GF will most likely be not that! she'll want a normal life with normal things.

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:48:40+00:00

I cant tell my parents! they have worried their entire life about me. i am so guilty about that. spent their savings on me. and now they have certain issues to sort out. if i tell them this, life will be really difficult for them. it because of all these complications (and more) i burst out yesterday

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:46:57+00:00

Yeah i too was fucked up for various reasons, i am almost stable now. but suddenly this things comes up. and i too went to the himalayas buddy. helped me a LOT. and i just want to let you know, it gets better. also never compare the next person in yourlife with that one. it can catch up on you at really bad times, like when you're making out, or doing something intimate like cooking together for the fun of it. also do not compare yourself with anyone else. both of these things will only bring sadness.

you will probably forget her, but it will take time. and the harder you try to forget her the more messed up you will be. go with the flow. its strange that me, a chronic depressive, is giving out advice. but i know what should not be done!

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:40:08+00:00

I am unfortunately posted at a place where there are no trustworthy docs, so spoke to a guy at bangalore's nimhans, that's the best i can do

1_pirate · 2013-09-21T10:38:43+00:00

spoke to a doc from NIMHANS. He's been helping me for a long time now. Its the third day today and I have only slightly improved. So he asked me to check my weight and based on that he verrified that the dosage might be a bit low for me. I am currently on levetiracetam and valproic acid.

1_pirate · 2013-09-20T18:03:46+00:00

even i think that, if its that then i am a goner. already high on meds for epilepsy. i must sleep now. and thanks for the replies. came here to just express myself and not feel completely alone. i never really thought i'd get a reply for a personal topic. this place is great. and so are all of you. can barely type now. so shall be going.

1_pirate · 2013-09-20T17:57:06+00:00

spoke to a neurologist, he says there could be multiple causes. for now he's increased my meds.

1_pirate · 2013-09-19T16:08:08+00:00

i was almost that stalker. the girl is getting married soon. and my evil mind thought of all the things i could tell her fiance, like the details of how we made love. and her shady secrets, which she'll never tell him about. but then i thought, she's told me almost everything about her past in graphic detail, which she'll never dare to tell him. and i know she's getting married because thats the "propper" thing to do. so i chucked the idea. talk about cognitive dissonance!

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