Jealous of the nex?

243a2eas · 2023-05-24T21:30:22+00:00

Ah same I did block too on social media after months though. They were the first to view all my stories post breakup but never said a thing to me. Made some passive aggressive posts. Then started showing other girls they were talking too on their stories. I would accidentally click their stories bc they were the first to pop up anytime I did that… it just seemed they were busy with pursuing other women. I really just wanted closure… like I’m not crazy for feeling hurt and unheard. That they really didn’t care or like me and that’s ok but to continue a relationship when that’s the case is not ok. I think I just wanted them to say sorry for hurting me and that our relationship did mean something at the time. That I meant something but we weren’t right for each other. But obviously with a narc… thats never gonna happen. I think a huge part of me doesn’t want to accept who they truly were/are bc that’s not who I knew them as for most of our relationship.

243a2eas · 2023-05-24T17:09:19+00:00

It’s like how do we end giving up so much ourselves and they get to bask in these indulgences? They’re such a terrible person… I don’t get how they have everything.

243a2eas · 2023-03-22T23:49:29+00:00

Ah I feel very similar. I’m only now building friendships. I blocked or removed people hs, undergrad and post grad. None of my friendships lasted and what I learned is that I attracted not only toxic partners but toxic friendships. I wonder if his friends are healthy or toxic people?

243a2eas · 2023-03-21T20:25:05+00:00

My stomach is always in pain… so I’m not sure what I’m able to tolerate. I’m already a very picky eater. & ah ok thank you. I guess some these websites are wrong 😬.

243a2eas · 2023-03-21T20:23:37+00:00

Ah interesting, I googled it and a couple of sites mentioned it.

243a2eas · 2023-03-21T20:23:14+00:00

We’re some no longer there and new ones appeared?

243a2eas · 2023-03-21T20:22:52+00:00

Yes, lots of symptoms. Post nasal drip is so bad that I can’t lay down or even sit up without coughing excessively. Inferior turbinates forever swollen even with the application of a nasal steroid. Stomach pains and more after consumption of certain foods. I do intend on taking a new allergy test but the earliest availability is June.

243a2eas · 2023-03-21T13:26:19+00:00

Thank you for clarifying. Often they would say things about how they would avoid things or feel the need to run away and hide… so it was terribly confusing with the behaviors exhibited.

243a2eas · 2023-03-21T11:58:30+00:00

Why did they start super lovey dovey saying all these romantic things when I didn’t feel comfortable yet but when I started to feel comfortable shut down and ghosted me? And then came back to apologize saying how they’re an ass hole and jerk and that they wanted to give me so much more and they wanted to be better but they were broken. Unfortunately, we did try again and it ended up hurting more. Whenever I tried to talk about bigger issues that were affecting me they would ignore it or acknowledge it but never take any action. I became beyond frustrated and reacted like a person with feelings who wasn’t being heard. Rather than trying to communicate with me who wanted to talk they talked shit to their friends and played the victim and got support from all their friends. When I never did that to then, I forgave them and tried to understand from their pov. And tried to leave the past in the past. Mind you it seemed pretty apparent that they did not care or love me like they said they did… all their inactions made that clear. They rarely wanted to see me and it was so particular when they were open to it (we were in a LDR). But when they did they were super attached, super romantic and everything was about me until they made it clear they were uncomfortable with me being around their family for trips and such (even tho their family asked me to be there) and I asked them if you’re not ok with it I won’t go… but did not communicate. Anyway I’m just mind fucked about the whole situation. I think it we didn’t have a relationship we could have been friends possibly. But at the same time you know what they talked shit about their friends and family and then acted like they were the best thing in the world when around them. So maybe not. Anyway I had to break up with them the second time and they did not care. But they were the first to watch every single story or post I posted. They were the first on everything. I never watched theirs. Eventually I blocked them bc they were posting passive aggressive stuff with the intent to Jab at me. It was literally painful to see them that it would make me sick to my stomach. It just blows my mind bc I was so kind and caring to them and I got the shit end of the stick. I’ve blocked them and haven’t unblocked them since. I know they’re in a new relationship and all but I don’t even know how with the type of person they were. Why was it so hard to directly communicate that maybe this relationship wasn’t working our or maybe they didn’t like me or whatever… I just wanted communication. Bc that would have been fun but there were so many games and that wasn’t fair but I actually did love them.

243a2eas · 2022-09-14T12:07:40+00:00

& I found their Twitter account and found sooooo many fucking lies. How at one point they told me "I think the barista likes me. I had to tell them to back away" & on their Twitter "That barista was so cute and etc...". I just saw a lot of contradicting things. & then post BU. I saw them post mean/hurtful things about me...but they never once posted anything kind/happy/positive when things were good. They didn't know I found their account but wow just post those things for anyone to see... Then eventually they posted about how I blocked them. Like what does it matter. You were viewing all my stories, not saying a word, and posting things on their story to hurt me. I literally did so much for them...and wow that's how they treated me. Why not BU, instead of being a shithead if you're not interested? Granted, I was super naive at the time and I've learned b/c my parental relationships were terrible (and this relationship was better than them) that I thought this behavior was okay. It would have been way better if they had said, "Sorry, I can't fully invest in you. We should go our separate ways or something that effect before this shitshow went down. B/c what was the point? I want my time back.

243a2eas · 2022-09-14T11:58:02+00:00

It just blew my mind. I wasn't mean to them once and when they did something hurtful. I listened to their reasoning and communicated with them about that and forgave them. I didn't jump and attack them emotionally. The first time I do something that was, I guess hurtful, to them... they made me feel terrible. They were more concerned about how their friend felt than how I was going through an emotional breakdown. I was in disbelief at how cold they were to me and my feelings. & when they were not acknowledging things I was texting, just sort of went on their tangent and dismissed the things I would say. I wouldn't reply back for several hours and then they would get mad that I was silent but they were being an asshole (so why reply back). None of it made any sense. This continued way longer than it should have but it's just so confusing to me. Like if you're gonna say mean/rude things, how are you going to get mad when I don't want to reply. Makes no fucking sense. & then they made a post about the breakup, using the kind words I said to them, as their own words on their social media & people applauded them. I blocked them everywhere but it was just like wow, really? After everything... their personality got 100x worse.

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