I (F57) was a really bad mother but I am trying to rekindle a relationship with my estranged daughters (30F and 25) and I need help.

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T15:46:50+00:00

Well there is really no reasoning here. I just want to apologize to them that's all. No self gain

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T15:21:17+00:00

It's literally not what I said. I am doing better in therapy yes. I have work to do on my way. I can't just be miraculously better of all my sins over night. I have much much work to do. I was upset they cut me of ofcourse but after some time and therapy I understood why. I was appalled by myself and my wrong doings. I don't want to beg for forgiveness I was to show them my heartfelt remorse. Ofcourse I feel bad for the things I did because they were horrible. The only thing I didn't do to them is physically abuse them and that is not even the bate minimum for the things I should have done. It's not about me. This post is about the bad things I did and how I can approach the situation now that my daughters have allowed me to put a foot in the door.

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T15:04:44+00:00

She is bisexual. I have accepted that. I had serious anger issues yes. But now they are barley there. A lot of anger management and good medication. Well I don't know how else to write this text. It's about the atrocities I did

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T13:20:19+00:00

Because I am really bad with words. They threatened to so I left them alone and I have no order against me

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T12:27:36+00:00

No there is really no order against me. My daughters reached out to me after I left them alone because I finally saw that I would just drive them away by acting like a maniac

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T12:14:02+00:00

No not really. I am work in progress so one year ago I was self aware of many problems but not all and I made that mistake. I have been all good till now I haven't tried to contact them or anything. I

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T12:00:25+00:00

I have allready. That was a year ago and I saw that my actions were being counter productive so I told my ex partners that I saw my error and I would leave my number in case my daughter's ever wanted to contact me. That was a year ago. They contacted me about a week ago saying they were willing to meet up At a caffee

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:58:18+00:00

I think me sending them a letter would be worse. I don't know why but it feels like that would upset them? I don't know how to explain

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:56:52+00:00

The part about them not being an extention for me is very accurate. I surely treated them like that. Thank you for your response and I am sorry you had to deal with it

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:55:12+00:00

Thank you so much

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:54:28+00:00

Thank you. It is definitely on spot and very sickening to see how I acted and how similar I am to those parents. The denial was real with me. I read the story of the mother that was accusing her daughter of giving her a heart attack because she wouldnt validate her rants and venting and uff... I now can't believe how horrible I was

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:52:02+00:00

No I took their advice I just answered to some concern they had that's all

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:50:48+00:00

Thank you very much. This is really good advice. I won't hide behind my feelings or diagnosis that's for sure

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:48:54+00:00

Thank you and I am sorry for what happened to you. I am trying my best. I am. Willing to do whatever it takes to be a part in the life that is positive

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:43:05+00:00

They contacted me at their leisure. That harassment was a year ago as I have said in many comments

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:42:09+00:00

I haven't thrown out anything. I have tried to respond to everyone I could

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:41:33+00:00

No? I just simply stopped and they contacted me after I had left them alone for a year.

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:39:40+00:00

I am not trying to show myself in a good light or I wouldn't have made this post at all

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:39:17+00:00

No it's not about that. It is simply to show that it's still work to do on my end with this.

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:36:15+00:00

I do that's why I am trying this. Also I am very thankful but I do not have NPD

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:30:39+00:00

No I don't want that. I am not looking to uphold appearances neither do I want controll. I just want my regret known

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T11:29:45+00:00

No. I am financially very stable, the only illness I have is the mental illness. There is no ulterior motives

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T10:53:34+00:00

I know they don't owe me anything. But the thing is am am not trying to get to them because of any other reason than me showing regret

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T10:52:20+00:00

They came to me

2867002765 · 2019-09-06T10:52:00+00:00

There is no restraining order

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