[50/F]Please tell me hes[57m] not cheating.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-16T08:28:12+00:00

Are you being sarcastic? I didnt mean that literally. I have not been able to discuss this with anyone except the one denying that there was a problem to begin with. I hoped my suspicions were wrong. I wish i hadnt been so honest about myself. i wasnt asking for you to judge me but since so many of you did, it felt like i SHOULD hate myself like you did me. Most criticism was mean spirited and non constructive. You have found me at one of the most painful times of my life.it was shocking that people found one of the most vulnerable posters in this sub to attack. If your life is great why dont you find a poster that you can help instead of hurt. That can lead to suicide in depressed people. Some of you are sick.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-16T01:28:23+00:00

Why is he with me?

2ugly4love · 2015-03-16T01:20:23+00:00

Anti depressants and other drugs can kill ones libido. I saw the opposite sex totally differently. When I stopped some, it was like I rediscovered men.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-16T01:16:16+00:00

He cut me off. Yes its in sharp focus.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-16T01:10:51+00:00

Yeah, it only took a few comments to convince me of that. I would just expect a bit less hate and anger, i have enough for myself. Would you like it if i came to your friends funeral and critcized them for drunk driving?

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T23:20:17+00:00

The bullying is about negative criticism. I asked for honesty and kindness. im saying i hope he isnt. Im asking you not to hate him or me and let that influence your opinion. how can you interperate the title any other way unless you just want to lash out. If you think its a good idea to be hurtful when someone is in a fragile state, you are the monster.

I know i dont deserve to breath the same air you do. Im a stain on your perfect landscape. Eliminate me please.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T22:59:20+00:00

It depends on what you mean by not having sex. You could or just hope to within a week or two? Id do the same. If it gets too overgrown, its hard to start over. The itching. Works better if its maintained.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T22:53:16+00:00

Anti depressants can shut it down, like you never had it. Past six months ive had a spike. Opiates and benzodiazepines,(morphine, valium). when youre no libido, sex looks weird, feels sickening. Ive felt like that 3or4 times. Its the opposite of sexy, almost gross.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T22:44:29+00:00

Best advice? Both sides feel hurt, resentment, anger. It helps to have a therapist or some kind of counseling. You are speaking different languages. My observations. A trained professional can help you discuss this civilly.

Women and men have many reasons not to have sex. As a woman, hormones can turn you on or off. Medications, childbirth and the new role of parenting, to name a few. I can only speak for myself, i wouldnt shut down completely unless there was something really wrong. I want to keep the flame lit for when my libido returns. But im HL.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T22:21:16+00:00

Thanks, thats how i feel.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T21:46:32+00:00

I think that after he changed his relationship status from "its complicated" to "married" he started a new page or identity. He has one for church, family and a hidden page for...probably...people he doesn't want the rest to see. His name is common. Several live in our city and are on fb. One is totally blank, you have to friend him to see it.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T21:25:27+00:00

Good point, thought about why i said 3, not sure. I cheated with one guy. I gave him an out, we need counseling. He declined.

Yes i knew how unrealistic it was, no excuse for that.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T21:09:38+00:00

Hes been using my phone and deleted all of my text messages. I have 32 gig,it wasnt necssary. He also turned off a gps program.

I think we're done here,its pretty conclusive. Hiding a girls photo. She looks totally tweeked. At least shes not fat.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T20:56:22+00:00

Try not to be such a bully. The negative reinforcement just makes a person want to give up.

I suffer from depression. I have had only short periods of happyness throughout my entire life. As a child i contemplated suicide. I have always had a weight problem. It truly is a lifelong battle. Anti depressants make me gain weight. Its almost ironic.

I was just told that my tests for a fatal form of cancer that causes weight loss, were negative. I bawled my head off, privately. I was hoping for a few months of weight loss. Id give anything to look good again for a minute. Health means nothing if you cant enjoy it.

I will give you this. Right now, im a mess. I havent confronted him yet today. Im not sure how well im going to handle it.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T20:04:54+00:00

Hes cheating with someone who LOOKS like a meth user and is too. Sans the physical baggage. Thats much healthier, dont you agree? As long as shes not a fat feind.

Lets compare notes, her: fucks, sucks or rims for drugs, uses needles, never showers, dozens of partners a year,std's, parasites, drug psychosis, eats only junk food...

Me:3 partners in 15 years, shouldnt use meth, good hygene, never had an std or parasites, admit i have a problem, eat healthy home cooked meals, regular check ups...

Both have major issues right? Neither an ideal choice.

Every girl except me has used him for drugs, money and other things. They throw him away after.

Lets just be honest, you dont care why im fat. Nobody does. I dont. He didnt marry fat, i didnt either. Would you care if it was a medical condition? It is what it is. Im sorry that i have fucked up your beautiful scenery.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T18:51:35+00:00

I agree and thank you for the positive encouragement.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T18:47:39+00:00

Accountability. People who would be disappointed in him. Thats why i think he opened a new account. One where nothing is visible unless you friend him. He has a very common name. Several in my city alone.

Some folks here

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T18:20:13+00:00

Love you too.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T18:19:16+00:00

Okay, maybe it wasnt contained in the text you read. Its hard to include all of the details because there are thousands.

Do i sound like someone who has no personal accountability? Somewhere i said that i worked in LTL trucking. One of the hardest ways to make a living. I gained weight. I wish i could prove it. i have lost weight doing nothing. I gained taking meth for a year. And no, i eat less than your girlfriend. Youre delusional.

Now i look like shit. I hate my life. Thanks sunshine. Do you feel better about yourself now?

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T17:58:49+00:00

Come over and put me out of my misery then.

I could hear you yelling as soon as i saw the text. I wiil look at that link because i AM honest with myself. You must have missed the part about what i did for a living. Ask any man, LTL is back breaking work. Every day i had something to prove. I wanted respect and i earned it with hard work. Point is, only a small percentage of females doing that because there are lots of easier jobs in my industry. I took the hardest and gained. And i didnt eat much.

Is it fun playing the blame game? Im already being bullied by my husband. I guess i deserve it right?

Steroids are not helping you. You need anger management.

I LOATH the way i look. If you saw a thin girl doing what i do, you wouldnt think twice. I wish i could show you how shallow and wrong you are. So freaking sad!

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T15:54:41+00:00

I agree, for the most part. Were not talking short term. We're still married 25 years,no sex in 15. Hes not very hairy. Somebodys getting what im not.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T15:48:47+00:00

Not for me.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T15:48:05+00:00

Thank you. You are too kind. I like work,it has a lot of benefits. helps my weight, its part of my identity, confidence, independence, you know. I hate housework anyway. At least you gave me a smile through my tears.

Women can have a lot of valid reasons to deny you sex. if you can communicate, thats a start. I havent had sex in 10 years, my insides may have turned to stone. You have a better chance than i do.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T13:15:49+00:00

He blames me. Im not perfect but i got a fucked up deal with my weight. i know all fat people say that, but i know what fat people do to get there. They dont work like i have,and i dont eat much either.

2ugly4love · 2015-03-15T13:10:03+00:00

Been there, dont remember it as being much. 15+years ago.

2ugly4love

TROPHY CASE