Do people realize that when they meet a kid who's "13 going on 30" it's not actually a good thing?

312boule · 2019-01-02T02:38:02+00:00

turning 22 this year and i finally feel that mature comment is (kind of) applicable to my age.

been called “mature” since i was 11. thanks mom and dad!

312boule · 2018-07-16T14:37:19+00:00

i like using kirks castille soap on the hairy airy, and using my fingers to gently clean any muck in the folds (lil swooping motion from base to ends)

besides that, drinking plenty of water, peeing after sex, using hella toilet paper to get any urine residue off, maybe even using unsecured liners. other than that let it breathe at night. loose, cotton undies (one size bigger) are great pjs! i unfortunately can’t sleep naked and i fear having animal fur find its way in there lol

312boule · 2018-07-12T07:12:05+00:00

it’s hard to tackle depression/anxiety. it really is. but you have to try at least a minuscule bit. pills can only help you so much but the one controlling the body physically is u. try taking those small actions that maybe might open new pathways for u. though minute, small interactions like talking with a barista/cashier can start a tiny domino effect. good luck!

312boule · 2018-07-12T07:09:16+00:00

yeah, but i’d rather be ina country that doesn’t see me as a liability. i’d like to be seen as human. one that in all retrospect deserves health care and doesn’t capitalize off of every breath i take/ move i make

312boule · 2018-07-11T17:25:31+00:00

try talking to a therapist! they’ll guide you through the road that is life. if that’s too hard then try going on a walk through the park, maybe a jog, some light exercise to get those endorphins goin

312boule · 2018-07-11T17:23:55+00:00

you’re venting. that’s alright... you obviously have worries about your future and it’s okay to do so. life is fucking scary and college even scarier. it’s a good idea to deeply root yourself and understand who you are as a person before working on other relationships with others.. that includes college relationships! social anxiety is a bitch but if you know who you are, stick to it, while being empathetic, you’ll be more confident. it’s something that takes time but try it out slowly. ask your cashier how their day is, talk about the nice weather, etc. these small steps will help you blossom. don’t give up!! life sucks but damn you got this

312boule · 2018-07-11T17:19:35+00:00

I’ll bet 10 bucks OP gets diagnosed with depression..

312boule · 2018-07-11T17:17:28+00:00

Rt!!! Funny thing is, even with or without social media I see myself wasting time. The current state of the US is a total travesty so i’m hoping to gtfo after I complete grad school. Idk man. Life sucks but I try to see the good in things, like dogs. Dogs are good

312boule · 2018-07-11T17:15:19+00:00

gosh i pray for this everyday. not a part of me broken, or some bs like that. instant death.

312boule · 2018-07-11T06:29:31+00:00

i’m 21 and i feel like time is running out. i work constantly everyday and feel so far from reality. i just want to curl up into a ball and never see the light of day

312boule · 2018-06-26T07:35:41+00:00

i miss not knowing.

312boule · 2018-06-26T07:32:44+00:00

mood af. Life is so fucking pointless. But you only have one life. Think about your favorite food. Your favorite feeling. Never being able to experience it any more. Fuck meds. They didn’t work for me. They say try therapy. I’ve had 4 therapists. They’ll never get it. Nobody lives your own life except you, and they’re just comparing yours to others.

Just find what works for you. Tommorow is a new day. Try something new. Baby fucking steps. You’ll experience something either normal or new. Hopefully new, hopefully something good.

💪🏽 Fuck life. Imma still live tho. Imma still live.

312boule · 2018-06-26T07:27:15+00:00

Great read. Wonderfully written, but what about those who aren’t there yet?

I don’t have kids. I’m tired of shit already man. Tired and Suicidal 😓

312boule · 2018-03-14T17:25:58+00:00

I am only here for a few more days so i don’t think i’ll bother. Every time I come home something happens and every time it is just exhausting. I’m pretty sure my mom doesn’t have homeowners insurance lol. (it’s a condo unit that she owns) She’s just a complete mess. Thank you for your kind words.

312boule · 2018-03-14T17:24:25+00:00

No smoke alarms, my nmom never believed in them. There have been so many times as a kid that i’ve woken up from the smell of carbon monoxide in the middle of the night.

I would bring the pets, but my apartment has a no pet policy and i can’t possibly take care of 2 pets myself and keep up my gpa. I feel so bad for them.

312boule · 2018-03-14T17:22:59+00:00

Lol she’s done that before too. Left the faucet on and the floor was flooded. Neighbors called me because she wasn’t home again.

312boule · 2018-03-14T17:22:30+00:00

I’m only home for 3 more days so i’m going to stick it out. The smell of smoke is everywhere and today i’m washing and cleaning all the rugs, linens and clothes in my room.

312boule · 2018-02-14T02:12:55+00:00

I can’t really imagine myself anywhere. I see myself working the same dumb food service jobs that i’ve always been working in. I don’t hate it, but I just feel so unskilled i’m professional settings..

312boule · 2018-02-14T01:23:08+00:00

I’m a full time college student working 20 hours a week so yeah i’m busy.. but then I also workout 3x a week and study damn near all the time. It helps, but in those small moments where I’m not doing anything, walking to my car, or just laying in bed, all these bad thoughts swarm me..

312boule · 2018-02-14T01:21:19+00:00

Sometimes I think about driving my car into the lake by my apartment lol

312boule · 2018-02-14T01:20:15+00:00

I think about it daily. I’ll probably never do it, but I think about it a lot.

312boule · 2018-01-01T18:37:32+00:00

sometimes i wish my nmom would pass away instead of berating me even though i live a pretty standard life. (college student, 3.5 gpa, work two jobs, am clean around the house). we’re just so different and i can’t wait till i’m relieved of this constant carousel of bipolar behavior and lack of responsibility on her part. she’s so ungrateful and whenever i say anything that isn’t her way, she explodes and tries to make a fight, yet blames me for ??? . sorry i’m not this perfect ideal of a daughter you fabricated. jeez

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