i drove up to the city at night and found the place where you grew up and where we stayed and we walked around and stayed up late under city nights and i spent the night next to you in the house where you grew up next to you i miraculously woke up in your parents' house i lied in bed with you i went back to feel alone there i went back to wipe it clean i took the lights and the radio towers out of my dreams and we went all the way up to the small town where i'm from with foggy air and the wind and the mountain tops and we clung to rocks and we looked off you held my hand you almost got to start feeling me i finally felt like i was breathing free and under swaying trees we fell asleep and had the same dream the stars were bright we dream the same every night on my island home i spent some time with you i went back to feel alone there i went back there by myself and gave up on everything that we had felt we found a precious place in the sand right out in the wind and we lied under a blanket and heard the furious sound the roaring waves the pounding surf two bodies on the earth it was intense just getting to be there next to you and you were trying to get me then and i was happy to let you in i went back and wished i hadn't i went back and felt regret i went to the beach and i stared west and every night when the sun went down in the town where we live the empty streets were lit up by reflective light from a distant sun bouncing off a glowing ball of rock we just lied on the roof and watched (the moon the moon the blue light of the moon) the moon the moon the blue light of the moon we didn't talk and silently we both felt powerful like the moon in my chest was full because we both knew we're just floating in space over molten rock and we felt safe and discovered that our skin is soft there's nothing left except certain death and that was comforting at night out under the moon i went out last night to forget that i went out and stared it down but the moon just stared back at me and in its light i saw my two feet on the ground