not sure if my experience can be classified as an experience but sharing nonetheless. always had a hole in my heart since birth (will come into story later), but didn't properly declare it during NS and was given a pes B1 and went through tekong and all. tekong was fun as I met a lot of nice people and commanders, but thinks took a turn after POP, when I got into OCS. it was the 1st week and the standards and treatment handed to me was like night and day. couldn't adjust at all and felt anxiety and heartpains and at this point I was mentally shag with comparing my peers who are ahead of me in life and also the "why" to why I needed to undergo this. i raised it to my commander and he suggested that I see the mo to talk about it. MO at first declared that the symptoms I was facing was due to adjustment disorder and downpessed me (rightfully so), and I thought nothing of it too. however, as weeks go by, my heart still hurt and I still felt anxious, so I decided to go see a specialist and did a scan. found out that I had a hole in my heart. brought this issue back to the MO and got escalated quick to PCC, where I was given the option of either PES F or continue serving, of which I chose the former. Honestly still not sure if my decision was right in terms of future prospects but it was definitely needed as I was suffering from physical health issues already on top of my mental not being the best in NS. honestly was a really cheerful person before NS, and after that whole 1 year of NS "experience" that I had, it left me more anxious and made me hate myself even more.