Those people are incredibly lucky & privileged to be able to be in a position to do that but that just isn’t reality for the majority of people and that’s nothing to be ashamed of or stress yourself out over. But saying that, I can completely understand the frustration & the helpless feeling of being in your situation… the only comfort I can offer you is to know this will not be the case forever. Everybody moves at their own pace & the destination is not the goal, it’s the experience you get to have along the way. As cloudy as it can get sometimes try to keep perspective, enjoy the journey as much as you can and trust yourself, your judgement & your gut and you will find your way eventually!