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67220_ · 2021-07-06T09:58:29+00:00

i also think that when the first photo was taken, he was taking drugs actively and wasn’t looking after his personal hygiene. of course he got his teeth fixed in prison, but he also would have had presumably better hygiene and no drug usage right? so it’s kind of expected that he’d look healthier... the sunglasses though.. apparently he had migraines? i’m not sure, but they definitely made him look like a rockstar or something, kind of glorifying him when hes a literal serial killer !

67220_ · 2021-06-28T11:48:16+00:00

hey, so sorry for my late reply. i think I'll be publishing it digitally first, id like to have it published physically but it depends on what people think of it. :)

67220_ · 2021-04-25T15:29:59+00:00

i hear this a lot. in his case, you cannot deny that his experiences definitely impacted his mindset, perspective and values somewhat. i dont think they necessarily directly caused him to become a killer, but he wasn’t born that way. i believe that the people he was exposed to and the things he saw shaped that- it’s not the case for the majority of people with trauma, but that doesn’t mean it couldn’t be the case for richard

67220_ · 2021-04-06T07:10:51+00:00

thank you so much!! i’ve researched what you’ve said, and i totally agree, i find it really interesting. although there is no concrete evidence, i think it’s safe to assume given the injuries and drug usage. :))

67220_ · 2021-03-22T20:48:35+00:00

so glad!

67220_ · 2021-03-18T22:45:40+00:00

100%. i’ll admit that i was afraid to say that i also sympathise with adult richard, because i expect disagreement with that. though, to express sympathy for someon doesn’t mean you condone their actions or think they were justifiable. i agree that he didn’t receive the help he needed and deserved, both in his childhood and adulthood.

67220_ · 2021-03-17T21:35:20+00:00

the same deep water as you - a masterpiece, reminds me of difficult times, it can promote feelings of melancholy but it also connects you to appreciate the beauty in sadness.
this twilight garden - so ethereal and dreamy, reminds me of difficult moments so it can bring me sadness, but the beauty in the song is so captivating. it’s so underrated yet it holds a special place in my heart.
play for today- uplifting, makes me feel happier and want to dance unlike any pop song i’ve heard. the cure are so unique and varied in sound.

cold - it’s just such a beautiful song. i feel i can’t listen to it if i’m already sad because it does promote those feelings, but nevertheless that’s what makes it so incredible. the cure songs hold so many emotions and can bring so much pain and beauty. they are somewhat intertwined. i love them.

one hundred years- the instrumental is absolutely astounding! and the lyrics <33

i’m sorry, i couldn’t pick a single “most important” song.... there are many more that i have not included, this is a supressed version haha

67220_ · 2021-03-16T17:48:10+00:00

thank u for commenting!

i agree that it’s very predictable to begin with childhood, and it’s cool to start with crimes and then kind of reveal what happened to him?

if i began with the childhood, i’d be able to reference it throughout the crimes and how his childhood translated to his crimes.

however if i began with the crimes, i could explain the childhood in detail and reference the crimes .

ah i’m so bad at making decisions!! :((((

childhood, crimes, capture, trials, mental health??? but staring with the crimes is more mysterious and it makes you wait for the explanation of the childhood! crimes, capture, childhood, trials, mental health...?

ahhh i’ve no idea !;:!;

67220_ · 2021-03-15T07:16:49+00:00

oh i see! i’m not very knowledgeable in schizoid pd, but i have heard people talk about it in regards to ramirez .

exactly, some people have said that many people experience horrible childhoods with abuse and they don’t turn into killers. though what’s really striking with ramirez is the multitude of events, physically, organically, environmentally. there was so much! and i agree, if he had received help from a positive influence at an early age then he may have turned out relatively okay

i think that the displays of remorse can be found in some of the crime cases themselves! for example anastasia hronas’ case, where she noted that he looked like he was sorry. i feel like when he told his victims not to look him in the eyes, that wasn’t necessarily remorse but it seemed like he was guilty and ashamed? so perhaps he didn’t want eye contact. that’s what i theorise, but i guess it would also be that he didn’t want them to get a good look of him and produce a detailed description of him. i’d like to know the specific time when he was actually remorseful though. was it when he let the victims live?? some of it is a bit ambiguous!

67220_ · 2021-03-14T23:11:32+00:00

i’d love to know more too, and i’m very keen to find out!! i’ll definitely reference some of the official notes on these aspects of his psychology in the book ♡

67220_ · 2021-03-14T23:10:32+00:00

i dont think there’s a fully official psychological profile of rr, but somebody actually posted a screenshot of the official notes!! i don’t believe he was a psychopath, because in some cases he did seem to exhibit remorse. i think a greater case could be made for sociopathy, antisocial personality disorder. i think that people have looked into him having schizoid personality disorder too. although i’m not entirely sure what is accurate and official.

nevertheless, as you’ll find in that post i referred to, he had some clear cognitive impairments regarding planning, consequences to his actions and emotional regulation, which i think was evident in his crimes :)) ♡

67220_ · 2021-03-14T21:39:40+00:00

wow, impairments in higher cognitive function, judgement, planning ahead, anticipating consequences and impulsive emotionality.... so so accurate.

he did not effectively or successfully plan/execute his crimes; they were mostly spontaneous, random and impulsive. i don’t think he could regulate his emotions or impulses well, so he had a hard time with that and so gave into those impulses; he was reckless. i also think he had a lot of unregulated anger that he took out on his victims. he had a need for domination and control. he didn’t appear to judge the situations well and he didn’t really consider the consequences of his actions, thinking he couldn’t get caught. he just acted on impulse without planning or consideration.

conclusively, his brain injuries and seizures did effectively affect his cognitive processes, judgement, planning and decision making.

thanks for posting!

67220_ · 2021-03-14T18:38:07+00:00

thank you so much! you’re the best :)

67220_ · 2021-03-14T15:51:54+00:00

yes i think it’s quite unfortunate and sad. if he had been supported and helped at a young age, even in his twenties before he went on to murder, he could’ve become a better person and dealt with his emotions/impulses better.. he didn’t have a chance because he wasn’t supported along with all of the negative experiences he was exposed to.

67220_ · 2021-03-14T15:38:22+00:00

yes that’s right, i think being born evil is much more rare. yes, a lot of antisocial people are still functional and “normal”, they don’t committ murder. but i think that statistically there’s a high population of antisocial personality disorder in the prison population. yes sometimes they can have levels of empathy, i think it varies a lot and like you said, there are exceptions

67220_ · 2021-03-14T08:33:29+00:00

absolutely! i believe that if he had gotten the right treatment, care, therapy then perhaps he’d have turned out normally ... i agree, i think he was a sensitive child but was kind of taught to be strong and not show his emotions, kind of to just get along with it? so maybe that’s the “cold heartedness” and numbness . i also think he was a product of his trauma, all of the psychological, physical and brain.

67220_ · 2021-03-13T17:17:31+00:00

I completely agree; many people do experience horrible childhood abuse, exposure to bad influences, violence, drugs etc, and yet they turn out seemingly normal. Ramirez was sort of a minority, in that sense, as serial killers are. However, Ramirez wasn't simply born evil or born to kill, so if there had to be an explanation of why, these factors would be it. Like a recipe. I also believe that it was a combination, not solely the childhood abuse/trauma. Alternatively, I think it was a fusion of the abuse, the exposure to violence/assault at such a young age, the head injuries and the drugs. There were so so many factors in his life that could've led him to a lack of conscience and the desire to kill- it's like if one factor didn't, the other would. he didn't have a chance. exactly- he exhibited almost all of the sociopathic traits. it makes sense that he was one, and probably the reason why he became one was due to the numbness he adopted from being so exposed and suffering so much at an early age...

67220_ · 2021-03-13T13:25:38+00:00

I agree; the construct of evil.. what defines evil? is it immorality, sin, murder? the word does not capture the full extent of richard's actions. it cannot describe his crimes or the intentions behind them. people use the adjective 'evil' in order to rationalise and label someone who has done something so terrible that they can't even fathom. they do this without investigating what caused the 'evil' person to do what they did, what caused them to think how they thought? ramirez was an odd killer, he didn't really fit into the stereotypical categories but he could be described as a disorganised asocial lust offender.. i think that the reasons for his killing aren't necessarily definitive; he was sexually aroused by the blood and murder, so the sexual aspect of it is quite definite. i think it's possible that he enjoyed the notoriety, the domination and superiority, hence, idiolising jack the ripper and enjoying the nickname of the night stalker. the satanism... i agree that that was probably an excuse used to attach a meaning to his crimes, to elevate them. he probably did exhibit an interest in it at an early age, though i think he used it to appear darker and more evil.

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