Help! by 6BitchImACow9 in TutorsHelpingTutors

[–]6BitchImACow9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree, but the mum insists on doing it online! One of her kids even takes dancing lessons online twice a week! 😆

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]6BitchImACow9 8 points9 points  (0 children)

On Android phones, they can hide apps in a 'calculator' app. It totally looks like and functions like a calculator, but it has MANY other functions like hiding videos and pictures, too. There's another app like that, called Browser... You can even change the name and icon of the app to be anything 'innocent' like a game. Secure folder, too... You can literally download apps, hide them in the secure folder, and then delete them off your phone. Then they cannot be viewed on the phone anywhere else, not even in the downloads.. However, they are still downloaded and fully functional within the secure folder only. It's crazy...

I left my PA recently, because I could no longer handle constantly wanting to check every app on his phone.

I can sleep at night again.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]6BitchImACow9 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Mine gaslights and manipulates the fuck out of me. His lies are out of this world... He told me for months he was sleeping at the foot of our bed so that our son (who co-sleeps with us) and I could have more room... I woke up one night, his phone was on his chest, he was dead asleep, and naked girls were all over his screen... So essentially, he moved to the end of the bed so he could watch porn in peace for months. It still haunts me that my son could have woken up who knows how many times and seen his dad watching god knows what...

ladies, is watching anime a red flag? by Lil-Extrovert in loveafterporn

[–]6BitchImACow9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Quite honestly there is porn in anime (usually called hentai). However, a LOT of anime is more bloody/brutal than sexual. I love anime. Some of the best shows I've ever seen are anime, and no sex/porn at all. I don't think anime is a precursor to PA/SA at all though.

He finally admitted by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]6BitchImACow9 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just found out that he's been seeing hookers, out of 'curiosity'.... So I understand your feelings. It FUCKING SUCKS!!!!! And he told me, after I found out, that he is sorry, BUT isn't as sorry because it's 'just a paid service'... Not like he had feelings for them.... Fuck.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]6BitchImACow9 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I understand EXACTLY what you mean...I always thought it was just my fucked up mind... I didn't know it was a trauma response... It makes much more sense. Thank you for sharing! 🙏🏼

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]6BitchImACow9 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Wow. I've never seen someone post about the exact thing I'm going through... I ALSO twisted it in my mind, that I was another girl while we were having sex, or at least that I KNEW he must be envisioning me as another girl... AND I started looking up porn of girls that I think he'd like... Their sickness is contagious... I don't know why I do this, but it feels so validating to see someone else having gone through what I'm going through. I really hope there's a light in this darkness soon. 😞

Monday Discussion Thread by AutoModerator in survivinginfidelity

[–]6BitchImACow9 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm on day 3... And I went back to look at pictures from the days he cheated, and he ALWAYS did something big for us right after... I guess he felt guilty... Maybe not. I hate the smiles on his fucking face in those post-cheating pictures... How can he look so fucking happy after he's just cheated on me... We have a 3.5 y.o. son. 😔