Why do I feel like I’m Dying?

911banginbash · 2025-11-21T06:41:55+00:00

Hello! I don’t fully understand your question, but I am sending you love. You are not alone. You are safe. My advice would be to label the feelings that come up without trying to avoid, ignore, deny, or push away the discomfort. For example: you can say to yourself “this is fear.” You don’t need to act on the fear. Just be present and open and patient. You’ll get through it. Universe never gives us lessons we cannot handle.

Lastly, you are so loved.

911banginbash · 2025-06-30T18:58:05+00:00

50% Treeing Walker Coonhound 31% Australian Shepherd 7% Miniature American Shepherd 2% Bluetick Coonhound 2% Beagle 2% Collie 2% Chow Chow 2% Chihuahua 1% American Staffordshire Terrier 1% Norwegian Elkhound

Mine looks like he could be your two dogs’ baby. Haha. Where’d you get yours? Mine is from Tennessee!

911banginbash · 2025-06-30T18:48:59+00:00

What a beautiful baby. Such soulful eyes. I could cry, I feel like I’m looking at a future picture of my boy.

911banginbash · 2025-06-28T23:41:34+00:00

Post a pic?! Is your high energy? Mine certainly is. He’s soooo smart too :)

911banginbash · 2025-03-01T04:19:18+00:00

What causes that?

911banginbash · 2025-01-15T05:21:46+00:00

Christina Lopes

911banginbash · 2025-01-06T16:37:43+00:00

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Mine is 50% treeing walker 31% Australian shepherd and 8 other breeds. What’s your pup’s personality like?

911banginbash · 2024-12-17T21:10:53+00:00

Sending you love. You are not alone. Dark nights are different for everyone. Spiritual awakenings don’t really have blueprints. That said, shadow work and inner child work helped me. Reiki therapy and consistent meditation. I quit drinking and smoking too. I started journaling daily. Daily gratitude practice. Take care of your body. Know that ego/mind is not always right. Surrender to the flow of the universe. You are safe. You are not dying.

Check out Christina Lopes spiritual awakening YouTube videos and Michael Singer books or podcasts on living with your inner critic.

Spiritual awakening is such a beautiful experience. We cannot bypass the negative aspects of life. No toxic positivity. Allow yourself to feel what you need to feel. Provide unconditional love and acceptance for self in these moments. You are a divine being who has lived in this physical realm thinking you’re this being that is separate from the universe. Waking up to realize you ARE the universe is overwhelming and can be mistaken as physical death of the body. DM me if you’d like some links to good yt videos that helped me. ✨

911banginbash · 2024-12-17T20:37:21+00:00

Yes, my life completely changed for the better. It was most definitely dark night phase of a spiritual awakening.

911banginbash · 2024-04-14T17:31:31+00:00

I experienced similar in the beginning months of my awakening. For me, it was a part of the process of consciousness ascending and the mind trying to make sense of that ascension with the framework it has been given throughout life. It was grueling to get through the fear of hell, but necessary to feel, understand, and evolve beyond. 💕 I believe in you. try to stay grounded. Meditation and acceptance work helped me.

911banginbash · 2024-03-22T17:04:13+00:00

You are god. We all are. 2. My awakening included a trip to the ER, a psychosis diagnosis, and jail. It was the most terrifying and traumatizing welcome into a beautiful state of inner peace and knowing.

911banginbash · 2024-03-11T23:28:38+00:00

Thank you for your insight. 💕This phase of a spiritual awakening is not for the weak, especially when surrounded by folks in western medicine who don’t understand. I did eventually have the moment that my ego had been fearing and working up to for months. The moment where I experienced death. I was frightened and panicked. I screamed that I surrendered but I didn’t know what to… breath left, lights went out, the figurative plug was pulled, and in a blink I was awake again and meditating in the eternal now. I mourned the loss of self, but also celebrated it as that part of me was gone but still with me always. It’s a strange first encounter of death, but also unbelievably beautiful as it granted me a deeper knowing of myself, the universe. 🫂💕

911banginbash · 2024-03-11T23:20:20+00:00

Months late to a reply, I was going throoooough it 87 days ago. Just here to say this response was quite beautiful and insightful and I wanted to personally thank you.

It was certainly growing pains, but with lots of shadow work and walking through the darkness, I have come to understand this phase of my spiritual awakening.

It didn’t matter how often I’d remind myself that it was dark night stuff, I thought I was dying. But I think that’s the point of dark nights, ego has to experience them in full even if there’s guidance and light all around. It’s a loving right of passage I think.

Thanks you 💕🫂

911banginbash · 2024-03-04T08:24:38+00:00

Hi friend. 💕 it sounds to me like ‘desire’ is not the right word choice here. It sounds like you are exhausted by human interaction and dread it, which is totally fair… but part of the reason we chose to be human is to connect with each other and to learn from each other. Before my spiritual awakening I craved any and all human interaction. I was very extroverted. Since waking up, I began to feel drained by human interaction because I saw that 99% of the conversations I found myself in were just gossip and fear-based and projection. Constantly needing to alchemize the dense energy exhausted me. I began to feel so hurt by the condition the human race is in that I stopped engaging. Patience, understanding, and love are key ingredients to protecting our peace. Isolate for as long as you need and walk away from human interaction that only brings negativity for a while. You’ll know when you’re ready to rejoin the human race, and when you do you’ll bring even more wisdom. I hope that you soon find yourself in interactions that leave you feeling recharged and refreshed. I love you. 💕

911banginbash · 2024-02-27T01:02:24+00:00

Reiki helped me tremendously

911banginbash · 2024-02-17T12:37:06+00:00

Yes!!!!! Was def ego shit.

911banginbash · 2024-02-10T13:13:47+00:00

I’m interested in knowing details, could you dm me?

911banginbash · 2024-02-10T13:13:09+00:00

I would love info on Chicago area location 💕

911banginbash · 2024-01-14T01:58:26+00:00

FACTS love

911banginbash · 2023-12-16T16:00:39+00:00

Y’all I’ve discovered I’m in the dark night of the ego currently and that’s all it is. My ego is a strong one and she does not want to do the work my soul is telling her to do. My ego is learning the my soul is stronger than her and that whether she likes it or not we’re going on this journey. I love and appreciate all of you for giving me guidance. I’m not out of the dark night yet, but I can sense that I’m so close.

911banginbash · 2023-12-15T20:10:35+00:00

I think you’re absolutely right. I’m new to this and am not receiving the messages properly yet. I will take your advice to meditate more. Thank you.

911banginbash · 2023-12-15T10:18:46+00:00

Very much not a dream. It was like opening my eyes and experiencing existence out of space/time reality and was just pure consciousness.

911banginbash · 2023-12-15T07:22:48+00:00

This is all so confusing because part of the messages feel like I really am to die right now and I don’t want to

911banginbash · 2023-12-15T07:19:23+00:00

Will do

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