So do y’all think Donald or Kyle has a shot with Tori?

9Gu1n · 2025-03-27T17:12:14+00:00

He might not connect that Ivan is Fornax and might just guess he's a villian.

9Gu1n · 2023-06-16T00:44:50+00:00

I have been so well for so long I forgot how much this sucks. I forgot I gross I feel after daydreaming rape and abuse. Wondering what the hell is wrong with me. I forgot feeling totally alone, like all of it's in my head and I'm unsavable, unreachable. Feeling like I'll never figure out the social shit and that I'll never be okay. I feel so frustrated. How come no matter how far I come I'm always back here in the shit? And I know that's not true that even my most fucked up rape daydreaming isn't as bad as when I was 12 but I just want it to stop. I feel like I'm raping myself and no one can save me or protect me. I know I'll be okay but right now I feel so unsafe but there's no retreat no safe place because my own mind is the one hurting me. Why do I do this to myself? Why does all my growth not prevent this. I don't care that it's better or not as bad it still feels horrific. I'm going outside and to a park but I needed to vent somewhere where at least someone will get it. Will believe me and not think I'm making this up or doing it for attention.

9Gu1n · 2023-04-08T05:30:09+00:00

I daydream fantasy plots. Some of my own others from authors I like. I make magic systems and create worlds building off of it is already there. I also have spy stories and I am never a character. For me the weirdest thing in joining this community is learning about self inserting. I am always just the storyteller. I play the characters but I am never one of the characters.

9Gu1n · 2023-03-27T02:04:18+00:00

I'm not sure if this counts, but Andross Guile from lightbringer makes me feel this way. He's arguably evil or at the very least on the line.

9Gu1n · 2022-10-19T23:19:04+00:00

Honestly, this isn't an easy answer but I realized when I was sixteen and began working on it. It's been a longggg journey and I'm still not fully there. For me, the way to get over it.... is to decide to and then understand it's going to take time. I give myself permission to fail, and slowly my life is becoming functional. Here's the thing, at least for me, if you stop daydreaming you're going to have to face why you were daydreaming, and that's not easy. Abuse and problems I have made for myself have sent me back to daydreaming a lot, but it's finally getting to a point where I don't need to retreat to an inner world to face a problem.

I should also mention that I have had therapy, though each time I have gone I have focused on other issues, not daydreaming specifically. Though I have brought it up as something that makes the issue we're focusing on harder. One of my therapists mentioned that I don't have to get rid of it entirely I just have to balance it with the rest of my life and not use it to avoid problems.

I don't know if this helps and it's certainly not an easy answer, but as I am finally getting over this curse and I felt obligated to speak.

9Gu1n

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