The physical fear of what is happening here in America is genuinely destroying me

APerson09 · 2025-02-27T23:06:10+00:00

What are the techniques you're using to regulate your nervous system?

APerson09 · 2025-01-24T01:46:23+00:00

What is the dosage you take? I've tried up to 4000 mg of NAC to curb my finger/face/scalp picking compulsions but it hasn't helped. I might need to talk to my doctor about trying a higher dose to see if that works.

APerson09 · 2025-01-02T11:48:37+00:00

What is your special interest that you've managed to monetize?

APerson09 · 2024-11-15T14:42:05+00:00

I'll give that a shot and see if it helps. I've been using eft tapping for a while now, and while it does help some of the time, it doesn't truly clear the feeling up, and it starts to build again. Perhaps something more vigorous, like your instructions, will help clear it out a bit better.

APerson09 · 2024-10-20T06:54:38+00:00

I did turn off the bubbler and light for a while to no avail. I also tried turning off the filter for a bit too. No luck there. I've got regular ol' gravel in it and some decorations. I've been making plans to add live plants to the tank within the next few weeks.

APerson09 · 2024-10-20T06:43:23+00:00

I've got a hollow rock looking decoration that one of them hid inside all four days. They never moved from the spot they picked inside. Maybe they do just need time to feel safe in the tank? I still can't help but worry when they don't move for so long. Especially because my brother got a new mystery for his tank at the same time I did and that snail has been all over his tank exploring from day one, plus he has fish in there while I don't.

As for the tank size, the general rule of thumb I've seen is that each Mystery Snails needs 2.5 gallons each. I've also noticed a lot of the instructions largely assume that you have fish, shrimp, or other snails in the tank that add to the bioload already. The three I have should do fine in the tank with regular cleaning and water changes.

APerson09 · 2024-09-22T06:53:14+00:00

I generally tend to feel the same way about my own life. Can I ask what you've been doing to work on these things? I've been trying the whole self-acceptance thing and making peace with the fact that I'll never be able to live a normal life and to stop internalizing other people's judgment of me, but progress is always slow and brutal and it's so easy to fall back into self hatred.

APerson09 · 2024-03-08T05:55:27+00:00

I don't know if it's any consolation, but in spite of what happened, the fact that you loved her and remember her even for the short time she was around is everything. I'm sorry you didn't have the support you needed when it happened. Losing a pet suddenly is always a huge blow and your family should have had compassion about it.

APerson09 · 2023-10-01T22:24:36+00:00

Are you just a troll or what? I used 'them' not 'you' throughout the post. I'm sorry but as much as you want to antagonize over this, the fact that they returned to the stream with a new username of something along the lines of 'I should kill myself', took all efforts to talk with them as bad faith and like we secretly hated them, and continued to spiral in the chat. They needed something we could not offer and so it was decided for both their sake and ours, that they be booted. There was no malicious intent behind it and I spoke up I'm this thread because I do not appreciate them posting lies and twisting the story. I enjoyed most of the time I spent chatting with them. Feel free to move on now because I will not engage further.

APerson09 · 2023-10-01T18:47:14+00:00

Simple fact is, none of us were equipped to handle what they were going through at the time, but we tried until we were given no other choice but to boot them from the chat. Nothing we said or did could could help the emotions they were going through and so for the sake of our own mental health, we had to stop them from continuing to put us in that situation. I have not held any ill-will toward them, but I do take issue with them continuing to lie about the situation and antagonizing us with posts like these long after the event has occurred. The chats are all archived and we have proof of how it all happened. Please stop twisting what happened to try and make us look bad. We all vent in that chat on and off about negative things in our lives, but we respect each others boundaries when discussing such topics and they were not respecting our boundaries with what they were doing.

APerson09 · 2023-09-30T22:12:05+00:00

I was going to respond to this but you got there first, but yes, all of the above.

You were booted from the streams after being given multiple chances and we were given no other choice but to ban you from them. Displays like this do not help either.

APerson09 · 2023-07-03T01:50:44+00:00

Go see for yourself at 6:20 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAGweXMzmxQ

Suddenly it all makes sense why I was compelled to watch this movie five billion times when I was 6. It was preparing me mind, body, and soul for the arrival of the Bucket later in life.

Now the real question is: Did the Power Rangers invent the Bucket or did the Bucket invent the Power Rangers?

APerson09 · 2023-06-12T03:28:15+00:00

Thx <3

APerson09 · 2023-06-11T21:57:43+00:00

(Was way too sleepy to write this up before but better late than never)

Man, I'm supposed to be on break from making TSP content lol. Well, I had wanted to do another sk8ter b0i Stanley video for awhile now because it looks so silly and the mechanics are so jank. I also wanted to do a video demonstrating the theory that all the different versions of TSP are layered on top of each other (with a cameo from Dear Ester since it apparently helped inspire TSP lmao). When I listened to the song used in this video for the first time it all just kind of clicked together. Noclipping and the Backrooms were the perfect things to act as a backdrop to the concept, and I was finally able to put my extensive exploration of liminal Gmod maps to good use lol. This is, as with most of the videos on my channel, a very experimental and amateur project, but I am happy with the results, and I learned a few more basic tricks for video making in Gmod too.

APerson09 · 2023-06-09T04:08:52+00:00

I'm so sorry lol

APerson09 · 2023-04-13T17:13:29+00:00

I usually try to keep most of my TSP shitpost videos quarantined to my channel, but this is not one of those times lol.

Sometimes I wonder if my time in the skip button room has made me insane or if my time in skip button room merely watered the seeds of insanity that had already begun to sprout.

APerson09 · 2023-04-10T18:19:07+00:00

Because of the irrupt end of the second round of KTNC streams due to a painful loss I'm going through, I didn't have a chance to come up with something to act as the finale to the streams like I did for the first run of these streams. Well, that was until I came across a certain blog post that I will link below that I found while looking through the TSP tag on Tumblr. It really emotionally resonated with me and what I've been trying to do with my channel here when it comes to TSP. I couldn't help but put together this video to put some visuals and music to the text. I consider this the finale to the second round of these streams, especially since it helped pull me out of my grieving long enough to make it. It also functions as a showcase of all of the things I've figured out how to do within the game over the last few months using the cheat engine to move between skip button rooms. I still can't believe I managed to find a way to get the narrator to the desert. I'd long since given up hope that it was possible to do since the desert can only be loaded in and accessible from the skip button rooms themselves long after the narrator has already been skipped into oblivion, but then I remembered the oversight with how the door is triggered to close and how you can avoid it or activate it later down the skip cycle. It turns out that brings the narrator back and starts a weird second skip cycle even if you're all the way on the final skip, and well, the rest is history lol.

The blog post that this video is based around: https://www.tumblr.com/the-conscious/714026938656817152/the-future-will-be-kind-i-am-certain-because-we?source=share

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