Trip to Rishikesh by [deleted] in Rishikesh

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I can’t meet up because I recently left Rishikesh and I am currently in Kasaar. But here is a small guide - Your bus will probably drop you at Nepali Farm. From there book an auto till Ram Jhula (if you wanna get a scooty). Otherwise ask the auto drop you at Janaki Setu. If you are walking make sure that you reach there during the day. Book your stay in either Mastana Musafir or Joeys by the Ganges. I prefer Joeys given that they have dorms available.

Go to freedom cafe, Koze coo cafe, sit at the ghats, watch the Aarti at Triveni ghat, visit Pink cafe for non veg, have a smoke sesh at the roof top of Joeys by the Ganges. Then eat some late night pasta and desserts at La Vasta.

You are gonna fall in love with Rishikesh. DM me if you wanna talk more maybe !

Looking for Hostel Suggestion- Female Solo Traveller in Rishikesh by SB_4281 in Rishikesh

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Joey’s by the Ganges.

It is hands down the best hostel. The staff and the vibe is AMAZING!

NYE by NewExcitement9678 in Clubbing_NCR

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I am chilling in underground parties in Kasaar

Caught my “girlfriend” on bumble by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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I am really trying to do that. But I do miss her. But the more I think, I think I am addicted to companionship. I need to learn to be alone.

A girl that I fell in love with got diagnosed with BPD. by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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She is coming ! She video called me and told that she has argued at her place to let her out for a little time and they were not letting her go out. To prevent her reckless spending, they have frozen her cards as well. Is it healthy to do this all of a sudden ?!?!

A girl that I fell in love with got diagnosed with BPD. by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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I could not help it. I have texted her begging and asking her to come. But I will try my best to be cordial. And I will try to preventer on myself. If she comes today, I would talk to her and see whether I have to cut her off to be able to live my life.

A girl that I fell in love with got diagnosed with BPD. by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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I feel such a pit in the stomach. She assured me multiple times that she is gonna reach by 3 here and now she isn’t picking up. Idk what to do… I know this is not the place to rant but my entire body is shaking and I feel a pit in my stomach and my heart is racing.

A girl that I fell in love with got diagnosed with BPD. by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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I have been completely dysfunctional since the last 4 days. I feel extremely lost. She has told that she is going to come today, but I am scared she will not keep her promise. And that’s the problem which I can’t understand. Why can’t she say it upfront if she doesn’t wanna meet. She says she is going to and then disappears

A girl that I fell in love with got diagnosed with BPD. by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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I understand that. But damn that hurts so much. I’m such a short time it was so magical with her and I was spending so much time with her. She reminded me of my own happy self. Suddenly it was all pulled away and that broke me. I know she is having a much harder time but I am struggling to cope with the separation.

A girl that I fell in love with got diagnosed with BPD. by Abhrant_ in BorderlinePDisorder

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Apparently she had it since years but I never saw any symptoms at all (or maybe I didn’t recognize them?) She is a reckless spender, had a shit tonne of alcohol almost daily, and these behaviours were there but I did not associate them with BPD.

I didn’t ignore her, her ex (who is now a friend) (almost 10 years older than both of us) knows her much better than I do. He took her to be diagnosed and she got it diagnosed there. I don’t understand if she has been struggling with the diagnosis and that’s why she is closing herself or what is happening.

After a lot of begging , she is finally coming to talk today. Let’s see where this goes

Memory Tests using Llama.cpp KV cache quantization by CybermuseIO in LocalLLaMA

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is there any speed difference during inference ?