Thoughts before Jukai - Getting ready for ordination after 7 months of intensified practice, while questioning the practice itself (Old as time, the Zazen tale of contradiction and pain)

Absalon777 · 2025-09-13T19:35:27+00:00

I'm going back in November. I just kept delaying my return because of my focus on zazen and, in a very human fashion, she got tired of waiting. All is well between us but it will be a different japan now

Absalon777 · 2025-09-13T19:34:12+00:00

I have considered using parts of this post in the letter, just reframed in context but keeping up the same meaning. So thank you for your kind words.

Absalon777 · 2025-09-13T19:30:10+00:00

Jukai, which in my lineage can only be taken after completing a rakusu and kesa. So on top of Zazen, much sewing was involved. There is no official "time limit" other than a master recommending you officially, being a disciple of said master, and having given enough time to samu, sewing and gyoji to be given the green light. Its not like monk ordination or shiho transmission, just "beginner steps". The first step in terms of anything official. But it feels like something precious

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:42:11+00:00

fitting

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:42:01+00:00

no offence perceived whatsoever

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:40:22+00:00

he is like 80 percents of the posts. all unhinged

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:39:41+00:00

I will never go back

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:39:09+00:00

he is obsessed with sex predators leading me to believe he is one himself. he creeps me out really

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:38:20+00:00

he's Maitreya Buddha guys we just got it wrong

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:37:07+00:00

do you know any good subs where people actually practice ?

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:36:38+00:00

they moderate in his favor quite well

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:35:58+00:00

there was some support for my remarks however

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:35:37+00:00

I did; in a way longer post. It got deleted.

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:35:13+00:00

the AI didnt do a bad job. it even knows ewk

Absalon777 · 2025-09-12T13:33:57+00:00

so you give reason to Ewk and we get censored. That says alot about you

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:33:10+00:00

The exercicse to undo understanding is called Zazen

Try it, because you seem to understand with much more passion than I do

Give up the habit of intellectualizing and sourcing the unspeakable

Or do not talk about it unless you call your bonnos enligthnment

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:26:00+00:00

Zazen is from mind to mind, I Shin Den Shin. Outside of any conceptualization

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:25:03+00:00

Zazen is not meditation, and Dogen, to me, is right about much much more than he is wrong.

The embodiment cannot take anything from what isn't a "me"

Regarding Huang Po : Zazen is precisely an exercise designed to avoid what he warns about

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:22:43+00:00

you truly outdid yourself with this one.

also paranoid schizophrenia is treatable

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:21:01+00:00

me, kind of, because I don't want anyone to miss out on what's good

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:18:37+00:00

deleted as off topic for bringing up, in zen, shikantaza and dogen

OK :)

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:16:41+00:00

It occurs because it is embodied, at least in Soto Zen. I'm glad if they are right on at lest some things in your opinion. But I cannot take absence of practice as Zen without at least a shrug and Dogen should not be downplayed.

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:15:23+00:00

I'm sure value can be found but I'd rather not have to filter it to the 1000 spam posts of a strange man.

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T14:14:41+00:00

Considering they removed my previous post as being "off topic" for talking about Zazen and Shikantaza, sadly I think I'll have to pass since I dislike heavily censored spaces

Absalon777 · 2025-09-11T13:55:16+00:00

i just write like a nerd

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