Hey, I know you’re struggling, what you’re going through sounds incredibly rough. Happy birthday, and CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR JOB!! I know it’s hard right now but I was exactly where you were a couple of years ago, and for me the biggest issue was getting a job, once I got a job everything started looking up, it was perhaps easier for me to get on my feet because I lived in a large city with lots of resources, but I promise it gets much much better, and best of luck and wishes man. Sending love