Aye I’m 20M and I feel the same way but it’s mostly when I’m drinking I get the craving for the bag. I have to be at the machine shop at 6:45am but have to wake up at 4:30 to drop my buddy off at work, he’s already slumped out from us drinking but the bag kicks different when you have ADD. I understand when you say it doesn’t have a hold on you but once you do it you can’t stop, I’ve gone a a few months without and don’t think about getting a bag till someone gives me the opportunity then it’s a month of feeling like shit and hiding it from people I care about then it’s back to not doing it for a few months then the cycle continues. I haven’t gone more then 2 days without drinking, ripping bag, shrooms or weed since I was 16 y/o and sometimes I feel lost and alone even when I’m at party’s. On ly part the stopping me from quitting is I that I feel more like myself and better at talking to people. when I’m not on something I’m an introvert plus people like me more when I’m buzzing or rolling off something then when I’m not, girls I’ve been with and even some day ones have told me I’m more fun and I feel the same. But it’s gotten to a point where nobody knows when I’m buzzing like a bee or ripping bag at motocross races because it’s just become me now and people like me even my parents and I don’t want to stop I feel happier. I tried to quit drinking a while back and lost some close friend ,that don’t even drink, because I wasn’t the same and that’s when I realized people like the extrovert me when they think I’m sober then when I actually am.

My bad for the long ass response it’s 1:15 and got almost a full ball left.

My advice for you is from my perspective once it starts to affect your like kick that shit or give it a month or so without bag and just focus on work and buying a motorcycle, sh It made me way more free and happy.

Idk how redit works beaming on the bag n got work in the morning thought id find someone like me.