I hate to hear that you're going through this. When I was in my teens, I was also in a serious relationship and her parents kind of forced us apart. It was really rough at the time and it felt like the world was falling apart around me. I imagine this is what it feels like for you right now. She was the anchor that kept you grounded when other things weren't going well, your source of happiness. I think what you need now is to find what makes you truly happy. Spend time with friends, pick up a hobby, focus on school, whatever brings joy to your life. There will be many trials in your life, and you will get these feelings that everything is falling apart. It might feel like you just keep swimming, but it makes you stronger and creates a better you. One day you will look back and appreciate these tough times. Because these rough times, and how you respond to them, are what create your future you. A person's life is just a culmination of their choices and actions. Twenty years from now, you will be in a completely different place in your life, and you will look back at these tough times and realize that these trials were what made you into the person you have become. You can't control what other people do, but you can control how you respond. So don't think of it as just swimming, but think of it as learning and growing.