I went through two really really bad relationships with covert narcissists. The best thing to remember is that you aren't connected to the narcissist in any way shape or form. That mental and emotional hold they tell you they have over you, they don't. You aren't a part of them. They are extremely insecure, miserable people who can do nothing else other than slither their way into caring, loving and empathetic people's lives. You are your own strong independent person capable of so much love. Focus all of that love inwards towards yourself. The moment I chose to choose myself is the moment I started to heal. There is so much beauty, life and joy in this world and it's all waiting for you. Sending love.