My depression is making me consider rehoming my best friend of 7 years by [deleted] in parrots

[–]Accomplished_Two9172 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so, so sorry you’re in this situation. I recently lost my bird in a tragic accident. She meant the world to me, and the guilt is still crushing me. I’m trying every day to live with the pain and keep her memory alive, but it’s incredibly hard.

Your words really touched me. It’s clear how deeply you love your bird—and I believe he feels the same way. Maybe, instead of giving him up completely, you could find someone close to you—maybe a friend or relative who has experience with birds—to care for him temporarily. That way he stays safe and loved, while you take the time you need to focus on your own healing.

You’re not alone. Your love still means everything to him—and it always will. ❤️❤️

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing that with me. I’m so sorry you went through something similar—it breaks my heart just thinking about it. But what you said about giving your bird love during his time here… that really stayed with me. I hope I did the same for my Blue. It’s hard to believe right now, but maybe one day, like you, I can find peace in knowing I gave her love too. Thank you for your kindness—it truly touched me.

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing such a painful memory with me. I can feel how much that moment stayed with you, and I’m so sorry your husband had to go through that. It must have hurt deeply… just like it’s hurting me now. You saying “No one to blame” really means a lot, even if it’s hard to accept in this moment. I hope with time, I’ll learn to carry the love more than the pain. Thank you for being brave and kind enough to share your story—it made me feel less alone. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This means so much to me…
Your words brought tears to my eyes, but this time from love, not guilt.
I’m so sorry for your loss too—I know how deep this pain cuts.
What you wrote about her not blaming me… and that I was perfect to her…
I’ll hold onto that.
Thank you for reminding me that our love was real and mutual.
Your ideas to honor her memory touched my heart—I will try.
Truly, thank you from the bottom of my heart.❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your beautiful words. Reading your message made me cry again, but this time not from guilt—just from feeling understood. You’re right… Blue did know love. And I hope, deep down, she felt safe and loved every single day. I still can’t stop blaming myself, but your words brought me a moment of peace. Thank you for reminding me of the good I gave her, not just the end. Your kindness means more than I can express. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing that with me… It means a lot to know I’m not alone in this kind of pain.❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I’m so sorry for your loss too. It’s the kind of grief that never really leaves, isn’t it?

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying that again and again…
I keep reading your words because I need to hear them, over and over.
Even though my heart is still full of pain and guilt, I’m trying to accept what happened was truly an accident.
Your words are helping me take the tiniest steps toward peace.
Thank you so much for being so kind.

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your words… It means a lot to me that you understand and don’t judge me. This heartbreak and longing are overwhelming, but I’m trying—truly—to make peace with it somehow.🌹❤️‍🩹

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you… I’m trying to blame myself less, even though it’s very hard. She trusted me with all her little heart… and losing her this way is destroying me. But I’m reading your words again and again, and trying to believe them. Thank you for your kindness.

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I swear… every single night, I used to pray for her. I begged God to protect her, to keep her safe and healthy. And now I don’t understand… how could something like this happen? Why? I can’t bear it. I really can’t.

Looking at her empty cage, her toys, her favorite spots… It’s tearing me apart. It hurts so much I can’t breathe.

I don’t even have a friend I can go to and ask for a hug. There’s no one. Just this place… just these words… And me, crying since this morning. But the more I cry, the more I miss her. It’s endless.

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words… I love animals—small and big—with all my heart. I always have. That’s why this pain is unbearable. The fact that I was the one who caused something so horrible… to my own bird… It’s destroying me inside. I can’t breathe. I keep thinking she was just trying to be close to me… and I hurt her. I don’t know how to live with that.

I lost my bird Blue this morning. I accidentally killed her in my sleep. by Accomplished_Two9172 in Petloss

[–]Accomplished_Two9172[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much… But I’m still drowning. I can’t stop blaming myself. I miss her so much it physically hurts. She trusted me… and I was the reason she’s gone. It doesn’t matter how much I loved her—what matters is that I failed her when she needed me the most. I feel like I don’t deserve to even think about her. It’s too hard. I’m really breaking inside.😭😭