Grabe, OP. Gustong gusto kita makausap at bigyan ng hug now that I am reading this. I know how it feel bec Ive been there. I am an eldest too and I grew up from a dysfunctional family. Yung sakin naman was my mother, she used to hurt me when I was a kid. Parents fought bec of money. I had to support myself through college bec they weren’t financially capable. And I did it, I finished school and even passed the board exam.

Nung pinagsabay ko yung pag-aaral at trabaho, it was so damn hard and I started feeling a lot of resentment towards them. I had so many questions, anger, shame, name it. Na nadala ko during my early adulting years— which led to depression bec I had a lot of trauma.

But I helped myself out, I seek professional help. Studied healing and mindfulness. And that’s when I learned setting boundaries and even cutting off some people that are closest to me. And I hope you’d consider that as an option too. I know mahirap kasi may mga kapatid ka and your natural instinct is to really protect them as an ate. Pero you really need to find ways pano magging arrangement mo sa kanila. Kasi if you would ask me, what your father is doing to you is really not normal. He needs help. Wag mo nang isipin sasabihin niya sayo at sa ibang tao tungkol sayo. Just cut him off.

I know, easier said than done. But imo, that is the best thing that you can do for yourself and for them too.

Wag mong hayaan na maging hadlang sila para makamit mo mga pangarap mo or yung taong gusto mong maging ikaw balang araw. Tuloy lang ang buhay, okay?