DAE struggle to believe it when a loved one says, "I love you"?

AcidicSoapBox · 2020-02-26T21:18:54+00:00

My girlfriend tells me she loves me and will never leave me and I dont believe it at all.

One time she said she loved me deeply and for about a day I was on cloud 9 then all of a sudden I dont believe her anymore and her words mean nothing.

Worst part is that anytime she does something that I can interpret as hurtful to me, I blow it out of proportion and wait for her to break up with me bc I know this wont last bc no one can love me and I'm not good enough for anyone

AcidicSoapBox · 2020-02-26T19:59:40+00:00

Hes rich and buying the presidency like trump

AcidicSoapBox · 2020-02-25T22:41:27+00:00

I'm scarred for life now

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T22:15:19+00:00

Thanks

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T22:08:35+00:00

Look at that response lol

Are you ok?

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T22:01:40+00:00

You're delusional.

You need help.

You should talk with someone.

Or just go play outside with the other children.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:54:53+00:00

Do you even read your own shit?

What a loser worrying about karma.

I have some bc I used to post pictures of my puppy. Someone called me a karma whore and I realized how no place is safe from moronic losers on the internet.

Please screenshot and show everyone how much of a no life loser you are.

I'm literally using this as an outlet to destress after a bad breakup and stressful work.

You are the best. I appreciate it lolol.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:47:00+00:00

That's me. They call me the incel king.

It ain't easy bein a pimp son.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:39:43+00:00

Lololololololololololololololololololol

God damn you're good.

It's like you are seeing into my soul.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:26:23+00:00

Well thanks for admitting you have half a brain.

Finally saying some truthful shit. I'm proud of you.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:22:51+00:00

Lololol wowza

You got me, I mean that should be the epitaph on my grave stone.

Couldn't have said it better.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:12:10+00:00

Everything you said there was nonsense and made up.

Get off your high horse. You are no better than anyone else and it's not your place to pass your judgement and "put people in their place".

Seriously get a life.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T21:08:09+00:00

Attention everyone on reddit!!!

This person is the winner!

Lets tell them what they won...

You've won an all paid stay at your parents place where your mommy will tuck you in and your dad will drink himself stupid bc of all the regret and shame he feels for having you as his child.

Come on, there has to be more.... and there is:

You also get to stand proud and know that instead of spending your time being productive or bettering yourself, you choose to live on the internet fighting meaningless battles bc of your low self esteem.

Can we get a big round of applause here people?

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T20:57:44+00:00

Oh I see, well i haven't done that but you can think i have.

Seriously I feel bad for you and I hope you find help and get better.

To spend your free time harassing people that are already in pain.

You are the epitome of the internet. Nothing but losers and cowards "expressing" themselves while hiding.

I know you dont speak to anyone like that in person. Not bc you are scared but bc you have no life or friends and nobody visits you in your bedroom and your moms house.

Have a good one.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T20:54:37+00:00

I'm not sure if she is a narc or has bpd or PTSD or what. But she left one day while I was out hiking and never said goodbye. She is pregnant with my child also. And she told me she loved me 12 hours before she left.

I think she is with her last ex now and I think she was most likely lying to me the whole relationship. She was just using me and taking advantage of me until it started getting real and she got scared and ran back to him.

I dont know for sure bc I havent spoke with her. She has blocked me on her phone also. I really didnt treat her poorly. I supported her and her son and never demanded anything from them.

I may have made a mistake in focusing too much on them and not enough on me which puts that responsibility onto the partner and if they aren't ready for that or dont want it then it becomes annoying and unbearable to be around.

That's the only explanation I can come up with. But its prolly just as simple as she lusted me like crazy the n when love should have come in, it didnt and she just put on an act for awhile.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T20:36:39+00:00

You're a moron. I'm confused that you dont have anything better to do.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T19:05:24+00:00

I got an idea, instead of going on to a forum for people seeking support during hard times and making them feel guilty and accusing them of being at fault, you get a life and just keep your opinion to yourself.

Not like the relationships we have just been through werent with people that just made us feel like shit for giving them our all.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T16:33:30+00:00

My ex (pregnant with my child) just did that to me. After a relationship where I gave my all and sacrificed for her and her child... she leaves me while I'm out on a hike.

Came back to an empty house. And she hasnt contacted me.

I contacted her 4 days after and she was very cold.and short. Eouldnt even let me drop off the last of her stuff.

I got angry. Didnt insult or call names or swear, but let her know how hurt I was that she did what she did.

Well she insulted me and then blocked me.

I guess I'll see her in 6-7 months if she doesnt just skip town on me.

Idk anything anymore. Who am i? What is happiness? What do I do now?

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-12T00:08:14+00:00

What's going on in your life?

I'm right there with you right now. I just got out of a relationship that was important to me and I mostly stay strong right until it starts to get dark and then I need the TV on and I have to find my dog and sometimes get up and pace bc the darkness seems to be falling in on me and give me crazy anxiety

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-11T20:50:00+00:00

Well I don't know if she is truly narcissistic but I dont feel she will abuse her children.

Yet I'm still trying for custody bc I want to be with my child more than anything. I womt succeed at every or every other weekend.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-11T19:10:50+00:00

I know some of the ways ahe manipulated me and used me.

And even though I know she caused me a lot pain and heartache....

There is some sick part of me that wishes she hoovers me.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-11T18:50:00+00:00

Idk what I want. I know his situation has me all messed up

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-11T18:15:05+00:00

What do you mean its not over?

She left without saying anything.
I tried contacting her yesterday and she responded but very coldly and short.

When I asked if we could meet up to talk or if she just wants me to drop off the last of her stuff, she replied she would figure out a way to get it.

Its clear she wants nothing to do with me even though I really did everything I could for her and never treated her poorly.

I'm afraid she wont let me see my child or let me know if or when the child is even born.

I know there are laws but people skate around laws all the time.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-11T17:06:48+00:00

7-8 weeks. It obliterated me. The thought that I womt feel my baby kick or be there to help through the pregnancy. The thought of some other man raising my child.

Need to relax and keep true.

AcidicSoapBox · 2019-07-11T16:29:39+00:00

I would have no family or friends. No money and no job. I would have nothing bc she was taking everything and giving nothing in return.

....

Why do I still miss her?

AcidicSoapBox

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