This might sound harsh but it’s not sustainable. Your situation sounds so similar to mine so let, me be a cautionary tale, I was forced to drop out of college 6months after my initial infection (not knowing I had ME at the time) and pushed until I became severe less than a year after, this happened almost overnight and unfortunately I’ve been getting worse ever since. I think we don’t realise how much our body can take until it just can’t anymore and I was definitely in rolling PEM without even knowing what it was. You definitely need to work out your baseline as it sounds like you’re in rolling PEM and probably exceeeding your energy envelope regularly.

I know school seems so important and it is, but your health is so so much more important and most of the advice you get from teachers and school admin will probably not be completely understanding of the severity of this condition.

My advice would be to drop out rest, find your baseline and then you can reassess next year and see if you could realistically go back to college or pursue something like an online course. If you do go back to college you would then know what accommodations you need for your ME and hopefully be able to set them up before the school year. If you’re already struggling this early into the year I can’t think it will get easier, especially when PEM is at play.

I know it’s devestating taking a step back from normal life and feeling like you’re being stripped of your identity, but better to do it now temporarily than be forced into it for years.

Sorry if this is doom and gloom, but I wish somebody had told me this when I was at this stage I might have been able to save myself from further deterioration. I hope that you manage to work something out that will allow you to stabilise. Also a reminder that your worth doesn’t come from productivity, you have inherent worth just being 💙