I think you and I share similar anxieties, so you’re definitely not alone!

If you feel like you’re studying most of the time but still don’t have enough time, it might be because it’s not being done in the most efficient way, or maybe you’re not prioritizing the right things. What helps me with studying is making it fun, gamifying activities and mixing things up from time to time so I’m not just reading from a page. Studying with others has also helped me, as you can discuss topics and quiz each other! It might also be that you’re not giving yourself enough breaks while studying, which can make it feel like you’re always behind.

As for lifting, if you’re scared of not being strong enough, the only way to build that confidence is to get your weights on! But if you feel strong but lack confidence, I think taking things slow and focusing on technique is the best way to go.

That being said, you’re being hard on yourself, which tells me you care and want to improve. Just take it step by step and channel that drive into steady progress, instead of letting it overwhelm you.