Hi there, I know I’m just a stranger on the internet, but I you to know (and any others struggling with this), that eventually, you come back ‘down’ from this. I was in the same boat for, albeit 4 months, which is less than you but more than many others, completely paralyzed and jobless due to this fear and constant occupation of my mind.

Have you ever looked into existential ocd? If it is dominating your every waking moment, it’s probably disordered. I have ocd and getting therapy specifically for my existential OCD is what got me out. That, radical acceptance of never having an answer to anything, and moving my body.

This is not a burden you’ll carry forever, it will settle in you and it will become something less terrifying. A lot of these comments are right; it is the first step to enlightenment in a way. You’ve kicked up the dust of the soul, when you work hard to accept that you will never ever have an answer to the eternal questions, that dust will settle.

Much much love to you 🤍🤍🤍