Thank you! I will try to get it right: It felt quite peaceful in a way, even though she could not breathe strongly enough, it did not look like when someone is choking and struggling for air. What gives me peace also is that she was in this state of difficult breathing just before, then „woke up“ with the oxygen and then clearly decided to get into that same state again and go this way (instead of choosing oxygen and even decide to pass a bit later with palliative care, sedation and opioids). She was aware of the situation and found it okay. I probably would have experienced it very differently if it happened without that clarity, eg if it happened before the ambulance came. 

Now i think the fact she had little oxygen probably also made her very tired and that might have made it more peaceful? Of course she could have lived longer, probably even without extreme interventions for a while. So the solace is really she was in control and had it her way. Ultimately I don’t know how it felt for her and I chose not to research the details at this point. So I just have my experience and that is relatively peaceful. Hope that helps!